Re: Theohumanity, aka Daniel Stacy Barron
Date: October 12, 2008 04:56AM
Jos,
Although you are busy through November, I hope that you will have an opportunity to keep up with reading the forum. In response to your assessment of my anger... I am not angry, I am enraged! I am absolutely fucking furious with this irresponsible man who is abusing his followers. This forum has helped sooooo much in processing this feeling so that when the day comes that my son contacts me again I will come from a place of love and understanding. I truly believe that without the dialog from you and the others I would have most certainly ruined the relationship with my son forever. But please understand, I am not an angry person. I am very much the opposite. My friends and family would tell you I am the most understanding and forgiving person you will ever meet. If you slap my face I will give you the other cheek. You are seeing me in a single light surrounded by a situation that for me, is truly the worst feeling I have ever experienced. I "feel" as though my son has been kidnapped and dually I am watching the trickle down damage from his captor to other innocent people and it absolutely infuriates me!! I am inherently a protector and a provider so this gets me deep in my soul. I am not ignorant to that fact that there is no such thing as a perfect parent and that, yes, my children as well as everyone in the world (including myself) could use healing, love and understanding. When my son gave me a synopsis of what he was joining EBE for (to heal his childhood wounds) I was supportive. I told him that he absolutely should address and heal any wounds that he thought were relevant to his advancement and growth as a human being. His perception is his reality. I had no idea I was supporting his decision to join a flippin' cult! Jos, I am a very loving human. To a fault. To the detriment of my own existence at times. I am so sensitive to other people's feelings and situations that I suffer from intense empathy. It's a curse and a blessing. I am passionate and it encompasses every aspect of me. I am not only passionate in love but also in anger. I help anyone I can whenever possible. With my time, money and in love. Love heals so much. I am a person of action and I believe in the laws of the universe. I soak my friends, family and strangers in love. Gobs and gobs of it. I work very hard not to let my emotions ever land on anyone else unless they are in pure love. I believe that every encounter with another human being is an opportunity to spread love. It makes me sad that my frustration in this forum has caused you to draw the conclusion that I am an angry person because I am truly not angry in any other instance of my existence at this juncture. I believe that if we had met under different circumstances you would find me quite funny and fun and kind and an unusual and refreshing example of mankind. Your comment does cause me to look at myself and see how far outside my person this situation has brought me. I accept that my venting does not depict who I truly am and that I cannot allow it to poison my judgment, I also cannot allow it to define me. Yuk.
Everyone,
I am mortified by the email Rob received from Daniel. I believe that when you put yourself in a position to lead spiritually you come under a different law of judgment. It is such an enormous responsibility and only the truly pure of heart can do so without persecution. Daniel has entirely too much ego and he's too screwed up to be a spiritual leader. And Jos, forgive me, but this completely pisses me off. It breaks my heart to continually learn of his abuse of power! This letter from him physically makes me teary. I read into this that... here you have all of these beautiful people who are wounded and searching for solace, growth, love, acceptance, understanding, forgiveness and honor. What do they get? Empty promises that play on their heartbreak and emotions laced with abuse and perversion tied up in a nice little bow of rejection, unless of course you are willing to surrender your being and become a follower and worship Daniel with total surrender of you soul. In other words, unless he becomes your God, you're toast. Gross. What about action? While it is very good for all of us to talk to one another in this forum... what about the rest of the lost sheep? I think we need action. Am I alone in this? Can't we take our position to the street? I feel like there needs to be education directed at this issue that stands alone and isn't buried in a forum about every cult. This whole thing makes me grossly sad and I really would like to direct this energy to something positive. As much as I could spend the rest of my life coming up with euphemisms and sarcasm directed at Daniel, it's just such a waste of time and it's starting to make me feel bad about me.
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All my love,
Melissa