Re: Turning Point Church World Outreach Center-Tell Your Story
Posted by:
DeborahSinger
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Date: April 22, 2009 04:42AM
I'm not going to post anonymously on here because I know I am not afraid to stand up and say how I believe. Not saying the anonymous posters are, I'm sure everyone has their own reasons. But I am so sick of TPs leadership keeping everything secret, I don't desire to keep anything hidden. Also I think I may be considered a credible source to some. For those who don't know I am Pastor Jackies daughter. And I'm so repulsed by the leaderships actions that at this point I'm definitely ready to share my story.
When I was younger I had a great relationship with God, I was confident in his love. But growing up in TPs atmosphere of expected perfection completely destroyed that. I remember exactly the moment it all changed. I overheard one of the leaders, the only name I wont give in this story, saying something like "Man, all these people think they're going to Heaven, but they aren't. Its so much harder than they realize!" At that moment my innocent belief was shattered, and I thought I needed to be perfect to be accepted by Christ. This belief was definitely fostered by TP! The performance became too much, I became extremely depressed, because I knew I just couldn't be as perfect as I was supposed to be, as I thought God wanted. I knew I couldn't be "good" like everyone else, I couldn't get rid of all of my music, hobbies, friends and sense of humor like I was supposed too. Then I started to realize that maybe the problem wasn't with me, maybe it was TP. Unfortunately it had been so engrained in me that TP is the way the truth and the life, and I left God as well as the church, not being able to separate the two. Pastor Mike told me that he would always be there for me, and when I was ready to completely 100% go for God to come to him. Well, over the next two years I walked through hell. And through the months of darkness, living in a motel high on meth, I longed for my God. When I got pregnant at 17 and was so alone, I longed for God. When I was 9 months pregnant, working 45 hours a week to support myself, and still surrounded by drug dealers and gang members, I longed for God. But I thought that because I wasn't ready yet to be perfect, I couldn't run to him. One day, thank God, I realized that Gods expectations are not nearly as high as the churches! I said "wait a minute, I love God and want relationship with Him, whats stopping me? Can't I just come to him as I am and trust Him to change me in His time and His way?" That was the day I was "saved", and even though I have since gottten drunk, smoked weed, gossiped, lied, and done pretty much any sinful thing you can do, I HAVE NOT LOST MY SALVATION BECAUSE GOD LOVES ME EVEN THOUGH I'M SO DESPERATELY IMPERFECT!
There is my personal story, and now I want to share some info. Yes Mike has threatened Cyndi with divorce for their entire marriage, it was not a single instance. Jeff Barnes told a friend of mine that it was one instance and someone can't be characterised by what they do once. Jeff knows that it happened over and over, so he blatantly lied. He also blatantly lied, along with the other elders, when they told the congregation that the sabbatical was for rest. It was an intervention sabbatical, and mike and cyndi were instructed to get counseling. Isn't it funny that they've been charging hundreds of dollars for everyone to go to a conference where for years they were the ONLY speakers, telling people how to have successful marriages? And yes Pastor Mike rebuked the staff because they don't honor him enough. I think the only time it talks about seeking honor in the bible is when Jesus is rebuking the pharisees.... Also the church is pressing charges for the "bucket of poop" incident. Which is really interesting, since when my parents had $3000 stolen from them Mike and Cyndi counseled them to not press charges, but to forgive. I guess turning the other cheek doesn't apply to them. It makes me sick to think of all the people who are still brainwashed by this disgusting group of liars, hypocrites, and true pharisees. Mike and Cyndi have clearly gone off the deep end and taken the leadership with them