Re: The Living Word Fellowship, The Walk, John Robert Stevens
Date: January 21, 2019 12:34PM
Been following all the messages in this forum and numerous others. I have not written on this sight for awhile and just want to say thank you ahead of time for listening.
The stories I read continue to shock me and right when I think we have hit the bottom of the shit pile, more gets revealed. I guess I am still processng a lot of it and peeling off another layer of my ignorance and naivety. I certainly had my share of abuses while part of TLWF, but so many of the stories I have read just take it to a level I never expected or even considered. It really is painful and I find myself emotionally all over the map. I am very thankful to be out of this cult and yet it still seems to haunt me in ways that is hard to describe.
I think what is hardest for me, to be very honest is this:
1) I joined TLWF in 1974 and I really did have some very real experiences with the Lord and found a very personal relationship with Him. Part of what I learned has carried me through many rough times in my life and there are some basic values and principles that I learned from JRS and TLWF that I believe are still part of me in a good way. I always felt like there was a big gap between the word spoken and how it was interpreted and then applied. Having said this, I find myself re-evaluating everything I have ever learned in TLWF, again.
2)I truly loved and cared about the people in TLWF, including the leaders. I was 18 when I joined TLWF and it really did become my family. I was part of this cult for over 25 years. Leaving was very hard but necessary. But even now, although I am disgusted and angry with it all, I find myself perplexed. I still feel a love for the ones I was close too even though they have done some inexcusable things. I also feel very angry and disappointed and taken advantage of, and want to slap the shit out of them, and more. I feel so violated and used, yet still love those whom I gave my life to for so long. It’s like a broken dysfunctional family. So twisted, so unhealthy, and co-dependent. Sigh. Thankfully, I don’t dwell on this every day. I have a good life, am happy, but must admit that these stories have really stirred up a lot of what I thought I had worked through...and for the most part I have, just another layer surfacing. This time though the exposure is full blown. I hope it continues and the dismantling is permanent. And the lawsuits actually go somewhere. Alright, rambling on...
Ok, well, now that I got that off my chest, LOL, does anyone know what sort of threat was made to the Grants Pass cult/church recently? Who, what, where, when?
Also, any more information on what the latest is on other churches affiliated with TLWF? Follow the money? What about the sexual abusers, anything going on legally yet?
How is everyone’s temperature lately in this forum!? Aside from the joking, lol.