I really hate that from the time I was young, my actions and behavior were subject to JRS finding out if I did anything wrong. I hate that he did that cold reading shit and I hate that he gave us words over our lives. I hate that I listened to a damn thing he said and even took notes. We all thought he loved us but he knew how to make us feel loved and covered and hence--controlled. He was a sick man who had no scruples when it came to his own self-fulfillment. I hate that it was always like a prison even as a kid through adulthood I wished I didn't have to be in that church. I think the only good thing about it besides my children and people I think are awesome--was that it wasn't Auschwitz.
Cloudwatcher, yes, I hear you. JRS was kind of like a creepy Santa Claus who could see kids (and adults too) all the time and knew everything about them. Everything they did, planned to do, and even their thoughts. He was especially talented at decreeing what we should and shouldn't do. Who we should marry, who we should divorce, what career we should choose and if we should have kids. He had those magical "God powers", after all. We were so lucky and special to be in The Walk. Those were dark days for freedom. Thank God and us that they're over for good.