Re: Turning Point Church World Outreach Center-Tell Your Story
Date: April 28, 2009 12:01AM
I think most people are here because they require and are asking for HONESTY.
That being said I would like to share some of my experience with the Word of faith movement.
I have been a type I diabetic for 33 years of my life, diagnosed at age 7. I don't know why to this day, I could speculate, ie: generational sin in my family line. I really don't know.
What I do know is this: when pastors use the pulpit as a device to tell people that if they aren't healed they truly haven't recieved their salvation, their not holy enough, the list could go on I suppose.
When my spouse and I first attended a church when newly married we heard such a message and questioned it, "if you don't recieve healing you won't make it to heaven".
Eager to recieve all that God had for me I began to study for about a year on healing scriptures, getting them into my heart if you will, James states "as a man thinks in his heart so is he".
I then fleeced the lord for a sign to really know that I would know it was time to step out and trust in his words about healing.
Went to a crusade, recieved the holy spirit and took this as "my sign" it was time to stop taking my insulin.
In that time I stopped taking insulin, I got all the symptons of having very high blood sugar, my spouse was increasingly growing aggitated, fear had crept in but didn't want to squelch my faith.
After I could no longer walk down the hall, vomitting all over and my legs turning blue, the pastors wife, elder and my spouse, decided it was time to take me to the ER..
I remember being on that table in the ER having the nurse ask me "why did I not take my insulin?" I couldn't tell her why, what an embarrasement to my God and what a terrible testimony from yet another wacked out Christian as to why God chose not to heal them.
My point is this:
the bible states that God's word is the same yesterday, today and forever. Jesus did heal still does, I believe this, but when a person in authority uses his position to question one's salvation because maybe they haven't received their healing, they are treading in very dangerous territory.
I have been saved 22 years, been married almost 20 and my spouse knows me better than anyone on this earth, but only God truly knows my heart, not any one man or women.
Our fruit is what we are to be known by in this life, what we do, how we act, what we say.
Be very careful leaders in the church when talking on this subject as not receiving my healing almost made me walk away from my faith, almost died, 16 years ago. God has kept me every day of my life, it is his will whether or not I receive healing,not how good I am or not in my life. It is for a reason I have diabetes, I don't know why and honestly I will ask when I see my father face to face. I do not believe it is because I am not holy or spiritual enough, that is ridiculous thought, that belief would make my faith in Christ about me and my works and not the free gift of salvation that he paid for me on the cross.
Last final thought unrelated,
I have been married almost as long as the Villamors and marriage is hard, wonderful and everything in between. At best it would be difficult to be objective about my spouse being in such roles as elder, pastor and my spouse and keep it all seperated spiritually, and emotionally, get real, come on... again honesty is what is required among other issues.
I have some loose ends to finish at tp for my own integrity reasons and may share more later about a sporatic moment and disscussion I had with mike later and has some bearing on what most are asking for in leadership.
While walking today listening to my worship music, there is a song on it from Casting crowns, called "stained glass masquerade" seems to sum up what most are asking for on this blog!