Looking forward to someone's death and to "piss on his grave" is not something meaningful and/or helpful to say here.
Please refrain from making such statements.
Everyone here, I beg your collective pardon. I went overboard with that statement. Such a statement makes me no better than DM himself, it's true.
I have stared into the abyss, and have seen his evil, have looked into his eyes, meditated on what must make him tick, and have emulated his warped ways.
The emotion, the raw anger, overtook me temporarily and in that am no better than DM. It is true; he just played me right into his hands.
God forgive me; I am disgusted with myself.
That statement says more about me than it does about DM. I am ashamed to have said it.
It is just that I find it all so depressing and enraging. I want to cry and scream out. It's the worst thing I could imagine. The worst thing I could imagine.
This DM is the deepest evil that I can conceive of.
DM is, I have realized, using me as well; he's using me and my zeal in order to further manipulate naive young minds. I have allowed him to get into my head and control me, without even being in his physical presence.
He's manipulating me from a distance and I am not even an ex-member, just some guy who met them once and left with an indelible impression marked on his soul.
DM laughing riotously when I looked him in the eyes and called him my nemesis, that memory haunts me. So disturbing to witness the man up close.
What have I done?!
I have developed an unhealthy and unbalanced preoccupation with the matter and have got to get away from it for a little while.
It is just that I cannot get away from it in my mind: if I am praying, I am thinking about the Jesus Christians. If I am eating lunch, I am thinking about the Jesus Christians. If I am taking a shower, I am thinking about the Jesus Christians. When I wake up and when I go to bed, I am thinking about the Jesus Christians.
I pray for and about them constantly, and commit the matter into the hands of The Almighty.
DM, in the end, will get what is coming to him whether we act or not.
Apostate, you are an amazingly well-adjusted and good-hearted man. Thanks for your testimony.
Your comrade in the struggle,
Edited 2 time(s). Last edit at 01/11/2008 01:06PM by zeuszor.