NancyB Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > Northerngate; I did experience to the max that I > could tolerate... then what did I go and do? > > I fell into a the delusions of a narcissistic > socio-path who pushed me to write a book about her > - (sh-shh I was not supposed to tell that she > created everything.) With me having a sign on my > forehead that screamed vulnerable sucker use > me! I felt comfortable befriend a person with > the same kind of behavioral patterns used to gain > control over people. It is uncanny! > > When I had to move out of state to get away from > that woman I started realizing how much her > control tactics were just like the Walk. > > Many of the people I grew up with in Wash Ia have > lived their all their lives always had each other. > Most did not get moved around to start new > relationship in other "foreign bodies". My late ex > got moved form here to there. ( another story) I > saw thing sin CA that put me into a bad position > of knowing too much and accidentally seeing too > much. - The gas lighting was massive. > > I could be wrong but I think the bad stuff was so > filtered out for the Wash Ia/ Shiloh core > families, if you did not know is where JRS > father's church was since I think the '30's. Those > families are pretty much related and been in the > church for 4 to 5 generations while JRS was > growing out ( When not in CA) My family brought in > a number of families to the Ia church that were > related to us or very close friends. This was all > way before Shiloh. So my position is very > different from other forum members that post. > > Since my father-in-law was leader pushing me to > "get my spirit right" ( I refused), I knew what > was going on for quite few years after I left with > my kids. > I would see TLWF members ( my home town) at > funerals now and then. any way I want them to know > that I care about the lousy situation they got > left with. I do have contact with maybe 2 dozen > old church friends who have been trying to figure > out what the H happened. I heard some one say "it > happened all so fast- Shiloh shutting down.) > > And it will take a very long time to get their > brains rewired if they chose. First accepting that > they had been duped and lied to by leadership will > be a shocking wake up call for them. The best I > can do is to try to express how much I still care. > > I don't really know much except from the forum > what went on in all the other groups.
NancyB, I'm sure that your old friends appreciate your love and concern. Or if they don't now, perhaps when the inevitable reality hits them, they will. Hugs!
Reepicheep Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > I heard that Bowman Littleton died in the orient, > still searching for the "real" thing after he > realized that this was not it. So sad.
Re: The Living Word Fellowship, The Walk, John Robert Stevens Posted by: Liamthomasusa () Date: October 30, 2018 03:03PM
I just read the Woodrow Nichols book... filled in and clarified a lot of information that had been cloaked in secrecy “need to know” .... I had just married one of the early Blix girls (1975)... I remember the whispered names and implications of secret relationships JRS had. I remember the phone call from Maryann Buckingham(1995/96) to my wife (now ex) stating she was going public about her first child being JRS’s son.... you see Maryann was living at Blix the same time my ex-wife had lived there... my ex knew what had been going on. There were many late night calls from G & M trying to bury the story.
It was soon after that drama I began to realize I no longer needed the affirmation of others and began thinking my own thoughts and found value in myself without affirmation from CLWF leaders. I no longer needed to believe in those that had been my “spiritual compass” .... imagine that!
I applaud Shalom for being able to find her inner strength to stand up and put her experiences in writing and share them on a public forum. I am so grateful that Onion is sharing her historical perspective and lending her fiery energy in putting together facts and a timeline....and believe me.... I know her fiery energy (lol).
I too am lending my energy and resources to bring all the chickens to roost so many more of the dearest loved ones can be free from the tyranny of CLWF.
Wow! Thank you to Liamoftheusa for posting this and to Changedagain for re-posting.
While thinking about being fiery and energetic, I am reminded of the “Can You Live In A Siege" mentality. The worst thing you could do was wish for a relaxing, comfortable life. That was an automatic symptom of apathy and failure. “The violent take the Kingdom by force" was the battle cry during the late seventies and eighties. After all, isn't that what killed JRS…our passivity?
This is still a hard mindset to unlearn. Becoming fluent in the language of kindness to ourselves is a new experience. Onion's thoughts on self care are unbelievably hard for many of us. Yes, we may know on some level that nurturing ourselves is healthy. But the mental self-flagellation doesn't stop that easily. Not living on high-alert at all times is antithetical to our years of programming. We may need help in order to recover from the very debilitating lifestyle which we were taught.
However each of us chooses to do that, I'm hoping to become calmer and more at peace with myself and my choices. Here's to long walks, lovely new soaps, puppies, good books and jigsaw puzzles. I wish for all of us a relaxing, comfortable life. We need it and deserve it. : )
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