Lily Rose, thank you for your reply. I think you are very correct in what you say. For myself, I will eventually have to make a decision to forgive, but at this time the rubbing of salt into the wound that never heals has really caused so much pain. I thought about it a lot and came to the decision if these people still cause me a lot of heartache, I will simply not expose myself to their presence. In time, perhaps I shall forgive, but at this point all I hope for is to feel a bit more neutral.
I still love Jesus. He is faithful. Perhaps the only faithful one in my life, as most offer only conditional love, if that.
Life goes on. I am thankful that through it all, I had the gift of the Holy Spirit which yields a covering to us that will lead us to Truth and reveal deception. I think that there were many loving souls in the Walk, but virtually all of us that fell into the description of the flock were open to some degree of deception through false teachings.
To those who ascended into so called leadership roles, I imagine the fall when it happens is quite drastic.
What always bothered me most about the Walk was the elevation of Man to command a position of worship. I always knew there was something off about it all.