I read this letter from a former MOL member, and what she said about healing on a spiritual level resonated deeply with me.
I was never a true "cult member". I never was initiated, never met the guru, never gave my money to the organization.
In many ways, however, I was deeply attached to the devotees, the worship, and on some level, the philosophies of the group.The group was at the center of my thoughts, the center of my social life. They were the people I chose to worship with.
I felt a deep sense of betrayal when I found out about the deceptions and secrets of this group. I was left with an aversion to God and religion, and, once again, a shattering of my faith in my own powers of discernment.
I have been following a path similar to the one taken by the ex-moler, and hope to find a similar spiritual recovery.
Even those on the fringes get hurt. If these supposedly religious people had any real sense of the spiritual damage caused by the secrets and power plays within their groups, would they continue to act as they do?
February, 2006 ?By a former member of the Miracle of Love
After I was out of MoL, I refused categorically to listen to any spiritual teachings whatsoever and any form of MoL meditation including any of their music chosen to induce feeling and "open you up" or better break down your defenses. When I needed to recollect myself I would just sit quietly in silence. I wanted to have all sorts of spiritual beliefs evaporated from my system.
I started to sing in a gospel choir, and my heart felt healing again. I went back to my mountain and walked alone to connect with my mountain spirit I know is in me.
I didn’t know then, this is the direction to go when you recover from cult. Steve Hassan described it magnificently in his books: look at who you were before the cult involvement, find your dreams again.