Krishna group in Hawaii
Date: November 24, 2006 08:50AM
zelig said:
"1.) Having Chris as your personal guru is like having a magic 8 ball with all the answers for every aspect of your life! No longer will you experience the discomfort of "thinking" ever again!"
It is true, but the 8-ball is a piece of sh*t with only one possible answer.
I got a copy of the "puke-head" lecture from cultreporter.
It is so twisted, so depressing. He tells everyone that they should not care about anything here, constantly saying that nothing we experience here matters, or is real.
He also kept sharing his vision of the future, which was a fiery wasteland in which everything had been obliterated, and all that remains is "Krishna, Guru Deva(him) and you"
Why would you hand your life over to such a dismall paradigm?
It is much worse now, but even while I was growing up this was one of the first ideas constantly offered to me by my parents, my mother, especially. (She is the 'serious' one.)
That this world is terrible, and the best thing we can do is get out.
Whenever I showed interest in things not considered to have "spiritual value" (excuse me whilst I puke my guts out) this was pushed on me...
"you don't want to waste your only chance, do you?" "If you do not do these things (serve god) who knows what body you may end up in next time (like a dog)"
"go for this now, we can get out of here(in this life)"
The way that Butler instructs his followers to disregard their personal problems is so terrible.
You will only become more weak, more helpless, more dependant and more fractioned... you will be a work of disaster in progress.
Of course the idea of escaping outta here will be more appealing.
You will never escape yourself for a second though, all those things you push away, disregard, downplay and run away from will be your demons that stalk you, that torment you.
They will most definately be waiting for you when you die, and don't be surprised if they are the most hideous, terrifying creatures you have ever seen.
All the power is in you, you are the one choosing this way of life, you are the one choosing not to integrate your whole self.
We have the means and tools at our disposal to turn this all around.
We can heal these massive divisions in ourselves... right here, right now.
We can stop running, stop struggling, stop tearing our hearts to shreds.
We can finally take a breath for ourselves, we can create that unique space for ourselves in which we can finally let our guard down... finally actually rest.
In this space, all parts of ourselves are okay, they can show themselves.
We can learn to live through ourselves as our whole selves.
This may very well include many things that we have "hated" in everyone else. who knows, you may even want a Knob at Night.
I think we all have so much genetically inherited dispositions, desires, traits and quirks.
I think we have all been surpressing them, compounding them, denying them and FIGHTING them for many, many generations.
We can keep on doing that (siddha) or we can finally f**kin relax and at least get to know ourselves a little better.
Through awareness and acceptance, the 'demons' quickly start to look more like our own unique characteristics... they no longer need to manifest violently.
To live through them creatively is pure magic.