Thank you again 4generation for this clear and powerful post from December of 2019. Hope you are doing well. Posted by: 4generation Date: December 28, 2019 12:28AM Welcome Powertrip, so good to see another brazilian posting here. Unfortunately what you shared with us is not a surprise to me and only shows how deceived we have been for decades in this church. For me who was born int
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"I'll tell you when you're getting too radical." -JRS "Praying for the death of your wife is not too radical?" -someone in the back of the church
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the heyday of Shiloh (summer of 1979--400+ people living in building) storming Heaven attempting to give God a black eye If we knew when he took his naps, we could ambush him when his defenses are down. He's been around for a very long time, seen what mankind is capable of, so it stands to reason that he's a frequent napper. #PrayerWarriorStrategy
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Reep wrote: And all because JRS was having a hissy fit due to his wife of forty years refusing to die and save him the embarrassment of a very messy divorce. Despite so many "prophets" violently praying day and night for the death of the Nephilim, Martha managed to outlive the Apostle to the Kingdom by many years. Vindication at its finest. Marilyn, of course, later chastised th
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Wow--this is one extensive list. Posted by: kBOY Date: December 24, 2018 07:55PM WALK TALK Lexicon Amphitheater = Facility at Shiloh where the annual July 4th (sometimes on the 3rd) fireworks show took place APCO = Apostolic Company Authority = Ministries claim to exercise the authority of Christ. Congregants must submit to their authority Babylon = Any church or business not associ
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Which reminds me of a Kingdom proverb I submitted and that was immediately rejected: "Don't bother trying to please Christ in the Flesh. It's not gonna happen." Posted by: that little red flag Date: November 29, 2018 01:19PM lone.wolf and Onion - I haven't been around at the local SD church for almost 5 years, but they had the apartment there (the Taco Shell)
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Post by Twoteetwo from October 2018 Posted by: Twoteetwo Date: October 17, 2018 06:57AM Onion, thank you for shining light into very dark corners. My husband and I began to think about leaving when Gary left Donna and baby, and married Marilyn. We thought it was so wrong, but reading the posts, things were worse than we imagined. We were such suckers. We finally left after attending a serv
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TheJewel Wrote: The god who created the universe has surely figured out how to make a volume control by now. "How great is our God, sing with me How great is our God, and all will see He can make a volume control" Sorry--that doesn't quite work. Please disregard.
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typer wrote: The violent intercession is back, from what I hear, online from the Shiloh group of about 40-60 people. Like all the violent intercession in the Walk/TLWF, it appears to have had the opposite effect. In fact, I think the best way to not have something happen, is to pray violently for it to happen...persistently "hitting God under the eye," and basically pissing him off.
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Hope you're doing well, typer. From April of 2020 Posted by: typer Date: April 23, 2020 12:26PM I hear quite a few people are moving from San Diego to Arizona right now. I hope they are delivering themselves from the cult; and that San Diego diehards will finally go away and / or find healing from the toxic Julie Larson / Bruce Larson poison and other henchmen like Seebolt and the
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Note to former self: When you are standing in a late-70's 'violent intercession' service, prayer warriors demanding that God fulfill his promises...and hear someone from the platform prophecy "WE'VE GOT YOU BY THE BALLS, GOD!!"--veins popping from his neck--perhaps that it is the time to seriously consider exiting the scene. To your credit, however, you restrained
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Reep wrote: Thanks for reposting this, Changedagain. Heartbreaking. Wasted, you only posted once, so if you're still reading I hope you'll write more of your story. You are definitely not alone. Yes
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Below is the updated stats for this forum where we've discussed our experiences in TLWF/The Walk. Again, thank you to all who have participated through the years in exposing what this movement was really about, and effectively countering the PR: Comments: 11,884 Page views: 2,459,583
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Post by "Wasted" from October 2020: Posted by: Wasted Date: October 30, 2020 03:28PM I have spent a lot of time reading many people’s stories and experiences within the cult that was/is The Living Word Fellowship. It is horrible, disgusting, and I am so sorry for all of those it has impacted. Thank you to so many who have shared. I sincerely hope as you move forward from these e
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I have a question. Whenever someone submitted something, especially during the G&M era, ministries would say they would "pray" about it or "wait on the Lord" about it. Did anyone actually observe this prayer and waiting on the Lord happen...ever? I suspect even God did not witness it. He too must take it by faith.
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All the teachings about the necessity of not coming to conclusions based on the reasoning of the mind, but instead looking for a "revelation"...which conveniently only came through the route of obedience...made us easy to control. Attending five services a week (or so) over many years, coupled with a constant emphasis on providing 'volunteer' labor on behalf of church authori
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One of the earliest comments in this forum, back in 2006. It's a description of one young adult's experience at Shiloh summer camp. In a subsequent post, this person says the year was 1992. Posted by: recoveredfinally Date: October 07, 2006 10:46AM Shiloh really was a slave camp. I was forced to work all day long in the blazing heat cutting rose bushes one summer. I fainted fr
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A post by GSchaeff from June of 2018: Posted by: GSchaeff Date: June 30, 2018 01:28AM This was a PM I was given permission to share: I was attending YASP around 2004 when a young boy from DC remarked that Gary would always starts summer camp with a word on repentance. "It's just a formula," the boy said, " starts with a one or two words (sermons) on repentance so th
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Reep wrote: I was especially looking at Lesson 39: Babylon. It was changed considerably and sanitized of many of the references to Mary the mother of Jesus being compared to Semiramus, queen of heaven. Interesting how many years after John plagiarized, I mean wrote the First Principles, some churches would worship his second wife...now married to another man. That doesn't seem scriptural
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Thank you for sharing this, Reep. You may have motivated me to dig through the clutter in my garage and see, if indeed, I decided to retain the book "The Shape of Things to Come," containing John's "vision"...not because I believed any of it, but because I found it so ludicrous and laughable (after I left), that I thought I should keep it as a reminder of what I was once
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Reep wrote: I believe that JRS is rolling in his grave. After all, he talked about the Catholic church being mystery Babylon. Posted by: puddington Date: April 18, 2017 02:51PM If you have an old copy of the First Principles, there is a lesson about Babylon in there. I recall that it read exactly like the book "Babylon Mystery Religion", which claimed that Babylon was the Roman
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Silas wrote: Hargrave and Esteves were interviewed for Catholic radio and television, reaching out to over ten million believers in all of Brazil and the world, before being escorted to hold a private audience with Cardinal Dom Orani. Incredible
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..
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with the 1,100 confessions and 1,200 conversions. That's quite a bit.
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> As time passed connecting with several priests, > seminary students, and other evangelical pastors; > soon it was time for Hargrave to speak. Throughout > his ten-minute message about oneness in the Body > of Christ and the special placing of the Catholic > Charismatic Renewal in affecting all of > Christianity, the crowd continually cried out > cheers of approval
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Reep wrote: OMG...I hope that "Hargrave and Esteves" can hear my eyes rolling wherever they are. LOL I wonder if these men of God are still dear friends? Maybe something happened that put a strain on their relationship.
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I sure don't miss all the pressure to exalt top leadership while in TLWF. Silas was one of the biggest proponents of it...being a recipient, of course. Post from March of 2017: Celebration of Oneness through the Holy Spirit By Silas Esteves March 2nd, 2017 Yesterday, following the conclusion of the School of Prophets, Gary Hargrave and Silas Esteves traveled to Rio de Janeiro to
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We still have not received an update on the progress being made in the independent investigation conducted independently by those independent of the church and all its independent off-shoots. I guess I have no choice but to continue trying to remain optimistic that the reason everything is taking so long is that former leaders want to make sure no stone is left unturned. It would be a bummer to e
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A post from November of 2016 regarding the continued promotion of John's 1972 "vision": Posted by: Saw enough Date: November 16, 2016 10:16PM Gary has persisted in promoting the vision JRS allegedly had in 1972 seeing 7 years into the Kingdom, even though one of the Blix girls at that time told Gary and Marilyn that she had been with John Stevens that entire day. This was c
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"I remember the path between Blix and JRS's house...past the hot tub pool and sauna." Wasn't John transported 7 years into the future to witness the coming Kingdom, while spending time in the hot tub with a friend? Wait...I'm probably getting walk stories mixed up. Please disregard.
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