If others are set free by the truth then my life will have not been in vain.
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If you think im being very candid I will explain the reason. Not only for others to get identification but I have been very poorly for a year and am housebound and i really have felt close to death on a few occasions ,I have been that ill and I know now I have nothing to lose by being totally honest...
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I have just remembered another thing that disturbed me and horrifyed me.Cheryl held a meeting to discuss with women how to behave in relationships with their partner. She shared as a woman she had power over her man all she had to do was dress up in sexy underwear and she could get anything she wanted out of him...She went on to say this included big bottles of expensive perfume and money to buy
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Talking about damaging my sexuality. I remember when i had first joined the fellowship i was in a house group at Hazels house and cheryl had taken the meeting.She took me to one side and said she wanted a word with me. She then asked me if i masturbated....well i was so embarrassed and horiffied.. she then went to say that masturbation was wrong..and if i was doing it i had to stop as it was cutt
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Polar Bear Dont be worried that you have triggered something in me .That is the whole point of talking honestly. It is my responsibility to be honest with myself and with others then I can face my pain let my resentments go and find healing. Pain is nothing to be afraid of if you face it...I remember the sweaty socks room I was there when the sexual sin thing came up. I found that very damaging a
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Hi Flower, I think the bottom line is that we all are hurting badly on this site.My heart is broken too so I know how that feels. All of us can only share from the place we are at.Many people on here have lost their faith and so will not react as expected in christian circles.Thats ok I am not threatened by that because at least its real. I would rather people be honest than bottle things up.I w
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Hi Trina it seems unbelievable now but I burned all my records and any book that wasnt to do with God. I realised later on after I was destroyed by Mein Fuhrer Doyle that Demons didnt come thru music and books. Demons came through people who punish you , ignore you ,treat you like your were dead, accuse of of all kinds of sin ....The bible says that Satan is the great accuser of the saints, howev
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Thanx folks thats the first kindness Ive had from Christians for a long time. I feel I can heal now.And we can all help each other now. In unity there is strength God bless you all
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I am shaking and crying now.... Im doing a bruised going all wobbly
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Hi David you have mail :D
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Hi David if u are who I think u are I have been trying to get in touch with you and your wife for ages. But a member of my family kept on blocking it. There is still control coming through this family member directly from the Borg Collective. I cant trust this person any more as they tell all my private business to the Borg. nice eh... I went to visit this person from my family they went hysteri
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I carried on in my faith after I left KCF I ended up in a ministry team for 5yrs.Then became head of a charismatic community with that was networked with a community in London. However I am very sad to say that KCF tried to influence the leaders that I was working with that I was a sinner, because my relationship wasnt right with Cheryl. Even though I went back to the fellowship on numerous occas
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“You might not like my comments but that is not my problem.” So what you’re saying is, you can say what you like and it’s nothing to do with you how I choose to act/react? Isn’t that what KCF teach? Dear Polar Bear..... I am expressing my experience, strength and hope.. At the same time I am exposing my weaknesses... Im doing this with all the honesty that i can muster. At no point am I s
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Polar bear phrases "like its your walk"...I find are like a red rag to a bull... Its the kind of phrase that reminds me of KCF.... I do not call myself a christian anymore .I feel the name christian is a stigma. You have gone on to join other churches.but if my memory serves me correct you did belong to another church all a long and you had one foot in that church and one foot in KCF.
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Thing is Liverpool I think KCF can effect peoples mental health so they feel paranoid and the victim .... I have had to move past that as it was destroying me... I suppose it has effected us in many ways.It is very sad to feel that everyone is having a go at you when they are not...... The only way out of that thinking is to be truly honest with yourself... The problem is were certain illnesse
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Dear Polar Bear I think I know who you are.If my memory serves me correctly you still have friends in KCF and you are still in contact with them...Is that right?
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“All that is required for evil to succeed is for good men to do nothing.” –Edmund Burke I believe we are good men and women...... It is not acceptable to tolerate evil. It is not enough to disagree with evil. We must fight it. Hope deferred makes the heart sick.....
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Hi Serenity I was reading what you said about the meeting were they tried to show you the doll. I remembered some stuff tonight I remember Cheryl telling me when she said my Dad had sexually abused me , that it was a lot more common place than I thought. I was horrified well as I said I was homeless overnight and had a breakdown. It seems Cheryl is obsessed with the idea of sexual abuse. I find
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bruisednotbroken the wobbly feeling you are describing is post traumatic stress disorder. I have had it all these years It was brought on by the terror that was inflicted on me . It started from the feeling of powerlessness that my voice was not being heard and then the turning of my friends backs on me.Basically I was treated as a liar and a trouble causer cos I disagreed with what I saw going o
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Yes , Liverpool Writer poor old page four does look bare doesnt it lol.........
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Dear Only Me I hope you dont take this the wrong way , I dont mean it as such...In reply to your comments... When people have been so exposed to Spiritual Abuse that they have lost their mental health, physical health, their faith/hope ,home, family and their trust in humanity ,it is more a black spot on a piece of white paper. For those individuals there is no white paper the paper is totally b
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Thankyou for your comments I identifyed with what you said. I have learned to love and trust ordinary(non-christian) people. I see God moving in them everyday. All I was taught to see in the fellowship was their sins and Satan using them. So this is a big change in my perception and it has brought serenity into my heart. That is how God works he loves everyone unconditionally. The ethos of KCF
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Oh my goodness !!! This is amazing!!! I knew God wanted me to open my mouth about this for many years but I was alone ... A voice crying in the wilderness...That is what God said to e when I joined KFC a long time ago.I was probably one of the first of the old gang to leave. Dave and John W you do know me. I am shaking writing this. I have spent so many years alone and I see before me now my old
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I M definately getting stuff off my chest today and feel better for it.
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I dont care if they know who I am anymore . After the terrible place they took me too( and all the other people ).Its time the truth was exposed. If you think you know me please reply.Lets get this show on the road...
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On reflection I also wonder how Pastors can safely operate on their own without Pastoral oversight. Proper Pastoral oversight from people who are there all the time to see what goes on in meetings. Not from someone who is out of the picture. In my experience when visiting ministers have said anything, that was considered critical they were dropped and sent to coventry too. I like what you said Da
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I do know you Dave and you were always a sweet man, gentle and kind... As were others who brought me up in God when I first joined these people I always counted as friends...God is a big God he sees everything .He has never left me nor forsaken me.I had an interesting dream about 5 years ago that I must share with you at some point. Cheryl always uses a technique that was used by Hitler "Di
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Thanks for your reply firefly. I have rebuilt my life and am continuing to rebuild. It has taken 10 yrs just to deal with the pain , I am still facing issues today because I turned to drugs and alcohol to numb the pain and the feeling of hoplessness. I have also periodically suffered from clinical depression as a result of what happened to me. The hardest thing to overcome was the fact they had t
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They destroyed my life well it was the Cheryl Doyle a dictator and control freak.Who made it known that she handed people over to Satan for the destruction of the flesh if they sinned.This is what she did to me cos I started speaking the truth and she didnt like it. I had many breakdowns whilst in that church and that had never happened to me before.Lets speak the truth and break the power of lie
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