Wiseman, it sounds like you've been on the wrong end of a few "[b:75a31a92b7]its not about you"[/b:75a31a92b7] statements??? :)
Strangely enough I don't remember becoming particularly selfish after quest (some people would say I was selfish to start with :? ) ... what I remember is that I could go cold very easily if people were not behaving to my liking or if I saw something upsetting. I could flick a switch in my brain and feel nothing. I clearly remember on the day after quest driving past beggars at the robot and feeling nothing; before that I always felt sad for them and gave money, or some days I felt sad and irritated that they made me sad and gave no money - but I always felt something. After quest it was like they were just trees or telephone poles, "nothing to do with me" as they teach on quest.
After inquest was the opposite - I cried my eyes out and for every beggar I saw and nearly bankrupted myself dishing money out the window. After a while some inquest people tried to 'put me right' and pointed out that I must 'respect' that they 'chose that reality' and I mustn't support their 'victim mentality'. I think they deliberately teach two opposite and contradictory things just to do your brain in.
That reminds me - the mentalities. There is the 'victim mentality' - no real victims, just a mentality about it. And then there is the 'poverty mentality' - no real poverty, just a mentality about it. If you don't have money for food its just a mentality. You're not really hungry. If you can't afford to do another quest course its NOT because you don't have money, its because you have a poverty mentality. (But of course if you really focus your intention and open yourself to possibilities you could manifest a CREDIT CARD! I'll bet the banks love lgats).
Then in the middle of this charming approach to social problems, quest like to pretend that they helped end apartheid by 'shifting the energies'; they distribute the Marianne Williamson speech as part of quest claiming its a Nelson Mandela speech (It isn't, and I wouldn't be surprised if it was quest that started the whole urban legend over it).
So, they get a whole bunch of middle-class white people into a room, scream abuse at them, teach them that victims don't exist and hey presto! No more apartheid. South Africa had a "Transformation" because the "work" they do teaches "Transformation" and how to "Make A Difference" and the energy spreads into society.
Nothing to do with mass action, international sanctions and the hundreds of people who actually lost their lives fighting for freedom. Very insulting to all people who actually took real action in the real world to change things.
And then they get a white sangoma in to do a smudging ceremony to "clear" the hall's energy before a training.... getting rid of the tokoloshis no doubt.
Ah well, I'm ranting...
You are right about the people that do Inquest, well, at least they think they look the part and talk the part, but then again, if I sae someone with slicked black hair dressed in black (as they do on Inquest?) , I would probalby start laughing out loud! This aint no mafia movie people!
The assistants dress like that on the first few days of inquest while they're breaking people down, to scare them. And there's some esoteric thing to do with chakras and colours that reflect or absorb energies... its not scary on its own but it is scary when you're locked in a hall with them for over twelve hours a day and they're screaming abuse at everyone and showing no emotion or humanity AT ALL. The first thing I remember of inquest is walking into the hall feeling kind of nervous and half-laughing and then I heard the door LOCK behind me and my whole mind and body went 'oh, f*ck' (I'm claustrophobic) and - in the next second you see these people dressed in black and glaring - trust me - sense of humour totally check out, along with the rest of me. Probably they were really normal nice people like your mom and sister, but you don't know that at the time.
At the end they start dressing in colourful attractive clothes, some symbolic thing.
During inquest they criticise the way people dress, their hair etc (in very graphic and metaphoric style) and do exercises where they dress them up differently. Its always more towards the mainstream, that is more acceptable to average people because you are not going to be good at recruiting if you look odd. So if men have long hair they cut it, for example, and they get them to shave beards and moustaches off . That's also to look 'clean'.
They're very big on everything being clean and clear and neat and pristine and controlled and in order. Gotto be clean on the outside to be clean on the inside. The hair gel is supposed to be to keep hair in place and in order. You're not allowed to have bits of hair flapping in the wind on inquest, it would be distracting. Part of the 'demand for purity' listed as a feature of cults, in my opinion. But also for sales reasons; there's research that shows some people are put off by beards but no real reaction to clean-shaven.
And they have to make people look different after inquest somehow because they're supposed to be 'transformed' remember, and it wouldn't do if nobody noticed the transformation. If you change your hair clothes etc most normal people notice and say something nice, because they have good manners. They won't say "that's a terrible new hairstyle" they'll say "oh, you cut your hair. That looks nice". And then the person thinks wow, all this great feedback, inquest really worked. I'm transformed!!
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Did you show your printouts to your sister who is still creating her own universes?