I had to hold my breath reading about what you went thru, especially regarding those accusations about sexual misconduct.
This is even worse than I thought.
When did that happen?
Did you leave Desteni all of a sudden, and when did they begin to attack you?
I'm really sorry about all of this.
I was never a member, but they blocked and banned me when I asked questions, in a very arrogant and impertinent way.
This was the beginning of my anti-Desteni and anti-cult channels on YouTube.
When I read your story, I inevitably have to think about the harsh reality behind the pseudo-world-saving attitude and youthful appeal Desteni offers to the unexperienced eye.
Harsh, disgusting and mad things like the interview on the Desteni forum featuring prominent members Anna and Matti, discussing their sexual esperiences they had together, "moderated" by Sunette and the "Resonances" (Bernard Poolman?).Anna & Matti discussing intimacy in front of Sunette Spies and "Resonances" - Desteni website
They openly talk about themselves having sex, about Anna crying, with all details no-one wants to know, that are no-one's business at all, and all of this is displayed publicly, commented and moderated by Sunette and the "Resonances", acting as pseudo-therapists I guess, like they were talking about the weather.
An other reluctant thing that striked me are those two interviews done by Bernard Poolman, where he interrogates member Katie Conklin, asking her trite questions, then suddenly asking her about her sexual preferences.
He mocks her and chuckles all along the embarrassing interrogation, he seems to get real pleasure out of it.
As it was not enough, he comments her every facial expression, telling her she's "faking" or "oppressing".
This is also publicly displayed on YouTube, humiliating the victim shamelessly.
By the German law for instance, Poolman could be sued for sexual abuse/harrassment.
I did a video on this on my YouTube channel, under my nick
PS.: If you wish to talk directly to someone, to PM me at my channel (SimulacronX), you are very welcome to do so.
The idea would also be to warn actual or potential members about those things you are experiencing, just an idea, if you agree, anonymously etc., soon, or in the future, as you wish.
I will never stop trying to get to the members, to give them a look behind the curtain by directing them to the Rick Ross forum, and to other uncovering channels on YouTube etc.
I persistently and patiently write to people commenting on Desteni videos, explaining some facts about Desteni, like there is no equality in Desteni, and that it is a normal, privately owned business with hidden financial records etc. etc., and Bernard Poolman even did a video called "Stalkers on YouTube" in which he reacted to our actions.
So, if you need a sympathetic ear, go ahead.