Re: The Living Word Fellowship, The Walk, John Robert Stevens
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changedagain
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Date: August 19, 2019 05:03AM
Re: The Living Word Fellowship, The Walk, John Robert Stevens
Posted by: Onion
Date: August 18, 2019 01:14PM
Aardvark - I took no offense at your comments about my credibility but thank you for the apology. I hope you have an opportunity to read earlier posts on this Forum. Valuable insights from many of us who had direct experiences and first hand knowledge like Reepicheep, Onion (me ;-), Changedagain, KByrne, Puddington, Kboy, Bobo, and MANY more.
I mentioned that for 9 years I "flew under the radar" in the walk church. After the long periods of time so many of us spent in the church, it is terrifying to face the consequences of leaving especially since (at least for me) almost all relationships had come thru the church. The last service I attended was in 2007 when the worship service at Shiloh was (at her request) to honor my mom after her death and was supposed to (again at her request) blow the roof off. My mom loved the worship above all else. But the worship was so dead that I was deeply embarrassed to have family there who had never experienced the worship my mom loved. I knew then that it was over for me.
I have learned so much since then about how the services were changed to become something that had no resemblance to what drew us in originally. It seemed like certain people (Rick Holbrook especially but always with complete support of G&M and so many) were out to destroy the Holy Spirit. Everything was planned ahead to meet some agenda and it wouldn't have surprised me if programs with the plans for each service were handed out like they did in the denominations I attended as a child.
It took until 2014 for me to move away and cut myself off (pretty much) from the churches and so many people I loved very deeply, many of whom are members of my blood family. And it took until early 2018 for me to post on the Forum.
It can be a gradual process. I did a lot of research and reading during my process. I felt so completely alone. This Forum gave me hope. I hope it does the same for you. I just started therapy this month and I am looking forward to finding and rooting out harmful conditioning from the church. Most important I've learned and suggest to you: Be kind to yourself.