Re: IMPACT Trainings
Date: August 27, 2008 02:29AM
My wife is awesome she has taken the time to seek all of you out. I have been reading the board and I first must thank you all for the courage for starting this and empowering me to speak. First off I am amazded that LGAT are leagle. The three days I spent in quest were unbearable by the time I got kicked out I was so confused. Normally I would attack anyone who treats me badly. I have a great awarness for bullshit but some how, I fell right into Justin's and Darren's trap. Justin used MY FUCKING EXCPERIENCE to control the whole group on the first day. He had one of his little cronies bring me a Microphone while there were about seven people still standing from the abuse the had recieved from Justin (there anwsers wern't working for Justin) therefore they don't have the right to sit. So then I stand and confromt Justin he says you didnt raise your hand, I say I dont't like your rightous arrtgorance and the way you are treating these people, "who do you have the right to speak for" Mutters Justin (fuckstick)? He say's to me that's right next thing I know I am pouring my heart out and I start to cry, (Weak I am).
Justin uses me "he says are you ready to pay the price," of course I said yes, in hind sight I should have leveled him right there (show him a price) and walked the fuck out of there. Justin looks at the audience and says, with a demons grin, "will see, give him a hand." You may sit down he mutters, I am the first person to help Justin make the group submit by being real and by the simple act of sitting I should have stayed standing. This fucking fucking fucking fucking fucking fucking pisses me off to no end. I am a born again rebel and for me to just put both elbows on the counter and let Justin mount me is so so so so so not me it's wrong. The next 3 days were horrible, it made me question every belief system I have and my beliefs were working just fine untill this point. (The problem is my life is great and my friend and still my friend lead me there under false pretences to quest nothing but lies, you will meet successful people who willl teach about businesses and oppertunities.)
The quest trainers have such power over people. Justin made everyonel of us recieve buddies Don't leave your buddy Justin and Darren would mutter over and over again. This is the only reason why I went back the second day, only because I didn't want my buddy to lose out, What a mind fuck this is. The second day I make it back despite my many reservations my buddy is there, thank God. The poor people who's buddies didn't show up, Justin completely destroys them in front of us all. All day long nothing but bruttle bullshit from (fuck stick). My buddy and me are on break and we start talking about the trainers how they are weird and give the feeling they are better than all of us unenlightened, My buddy and I are actually making fun of them bad. A couple of trainers were listening to us and you could see the sirens go off over there head, (Code red COde Red a free thinker, warning free thikers).
We get back in before 2001 a space auddsey stops playing and we are broke into archs (feedback archs). This is horrifing what some of these poor people have to endure. the trainers are horrible they keep telling us be more brutal serve it to them. Come on pussy one says to me get real. I said to her shut up fucking dumb bitch all serve it to you, than I had to stand up again and go through the arch a second time, because of my attitude. The trainer starts the arch out and hammers me for the full 3 minutes at the end I looked at her and still called her a bitch, this time a fucking fat bitch, she has Justin there this time and he says no sidetalking like 6 times to me so loud everyone in the room turns to look. I sit but now I am beyond pissed.
That day and nigt we do all of these excerises that are designed to tweak with your mind let out things that don't need to be let out that super dark secert that only God knows. This is where the mind fuck really begins. I can't stop the thoughts from poundiong me I feel so gulity and pissed and so confused it is so overwhelming and its the beginning of a mental breakdown something I have seen way to often in my own family. Something I never thought I would allow my self to experience, after all I felt that I was stronger than this. What lies they put into me. I leave that night around 1:30 am. I can't get these thoughts to stop I hardly sleep that night that's what the want an easy Target after all. I wake up and call my buddy. My buddy says he feels sick, no wonder why. I convince him to come because I thought up untill now I am paying the price and there will be some breakthrough for all I am doing, Right?
After all this is the price I had payed. I drive to Provo to find my buddies house I am from out of state so I dont know where I am, so I give up and head off to ITC. I am almost late and my buddy hasn't showed up. The music starts playing I hurry to my seat and Justin asks the group did your buddy not make it here? I stand, the only one to stand or fail there buddy. Justin asks where is your buddy I say, "I have failed my buddy in a submissive tone" Next Justin says take your name tag off and get out. Justin is going to use me again to keep the group under his control I fuckin let him use me again, burn in hell Justin/(fuck stick)I turn back and give him a look get out he says like 6 times. I stand there for a moment and get surronded by trainers they circle me and start walking they walk me out to the offices outside the conference rooms. A trainer named steven asks me why I play the victim. I look at him and say how do I do that. He says by the tone in your voice Justin can tell your not willing to pay the price, once Justin asks for name tag you are out, but you can come back in Oct. I look at him and say look into my eye, he looks but those people can't look straight in your eye they look around it. I say no pussy look in there do see that. He say's "see what," the lightening inside the middle, the real me not your tainted down verison of bullshit. They still have me surronded so I look at the weakest one adnd tell him I could make it to where you will never walk again if you don't back off.
I feel bad for what I said to some of the poor tainted trainers its not there fault there Hans fuckin money puppets. Darren comes out tells me subdue my spirit and listen to what feedback was given to me as loud as he could! To this I respond to Darren by given him the demons name that lives inside of him, Dalius. I tell him that he and his group are demon possessed and they all were under the spirit of the devil. Get me the fuck out of here now I scream Satan I rebuke you get behind me now I also am saying a very powerful prayer in my head its a form of mediation for me and helps me channel my anger, Thank God for that. They won't show me the way so I almost break one of there doors I yell at Steven if he doesn't want to be put through the wall he will show me the way out. He does at a distance who's the pussy now. I get out into the entry the trainers try one more time to subdue me and are still saying make the right decison to come back to quest in Oct. To this I show them why I am a Born again rebel and I raise up both middle fingers in pride, walk on bitches.
This is where the confusion sets in I feel like a failure and thats what they want. I am crushing myself and for the first time in my life I entertain the thoughts of sucisde. I think about driving my car off the edge of the freeway into nothingness I feel so angry yet so depressed and more so broken my whole belief system shatterd and not working I truely feel alone. The devil is working a work on me I manage to get back to my Aunt's where I was staying thankfully she wasn't there I didn't want her to see me like this. I call my son and I am sure it sounded like I was dieing he was so scared he told me dad you have more faith than anyone i know don't lose it, he just kept repeating that, thank god for my son. He made prompise to not act on my impluses because at that time my impluses were tainted by the devil/Hans himself. I manage to pull my self up not together and end up driving for the next 12 hours
I could go in to that jopurney but that is now between me and God now. It has been hell these last few weeks I am now for the first time in my life depressed it's a weird feeeling, but what ever doesn't kill you can only make you stronger. I am commited to fight this fight I still believe in God and I know I was sent there to help open others eyes to the terrorists that live in our midst. The worst kind of Terrorists. Terrorists of the heart. My vow to you all i will bring the fight to there laps like no other. I have very many ideas and will be finding a way to protest this. Civil disobidence lives and breathes and its about time this concept comes back to life in America.
What I have been doing is calling there training center as much as possible tieing up there time with pissed off me. faxing nothing but trash to them getting on there web site and emailing the whole trainer staff shit like this, "Ican't believe my eyes. Nothing but lies on your web site. Why don't impact explain how there is no hope, how the trainers tear each person down to the point of mental breakdown, how this breakdown effect will lead to you destruction and not the great life?
What a crock of shit a war machine created by the Nazi ideals. In fact I could scrape the Nazi ideals and brainwashed bullshit off of Justin and Darren's teeth! Pounds and Pounds of Nazi shit from out of their mouths. The best part is how stupid all the trainers and office staff is. Complete idiots and followers (Hail Hans) who only listen to their hearts/Hans and not their brain. You dumb fucks can send me your money I promise I will do something better with it. In my experience i would rather think with my ass than listen too any of you (fuck sticks). Oh my Let's not use our brains or we might play the victim and fid out how fucked we are. Hans puts out wild fires, Hey! Well tell him toget ready for the fire is coming. Arch Angel Michael is tiredof his name being sickened and tainted by satan/Hans Himself. The battle is at hand chose your side for the Lord God almighty is coming, and I got news for ya (There are no other Gods) God is (Iam) therefore your not Gods. Not one person never can be never will be I am an d watch out for perfect vengence is the Lord Gog almighty not the Lord Hans almighty. All of you have angered God and the Arch Angel Michael (angel of war) Stop use your brains and think before the war claims your immortal souls. So be it I'll settlt the score get your men ready and prepare for a Holy war, Bitches! Peace Hope and Love if not these than what? Wake up impact or Fuck off and burn bitches."
I send this shit constantly I jam there phone lines and now indate their fax and emails the more people that do it the more harder it will become to operate. Is impact ready to pay the price, Fuck Ya and I wish to use me BORN AGAIN REBEL nature to bring about change. The time to stand is now, before we lose another Brother, Sister, uncle, aunt, Mom, Dad, Son, Daughter, wife, husband, children, neighbor, and more importantly ourseleves. Stand for something or fall for everything. Talk to me people tell me what we can do to shake the foundation. rereo shake your foundation. Sorry for my grammer and spelling its a weakness and partly why I wouldn't respond I am over it now. Thank you EXIMPACT you kick ass.