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misleadsoul
Hum... how to begin? To be dreadfully honest I am stuck. I have grown up in the church all my life and visited every church possible in washington state. I don't know if my problem is just church or the people in the church, but I can't bring myself to ever trying to join a church. Everything I have seen is manipulative, self seeking, money hungery, lieing,selfserving churches, or I've also been on the other side of it to the point of self denial, sacrifice everything, sell things off, If your not thinking of Christ 24/7, then what you are doing is evil, unholy.
Where is the balance in church today? There is none. Now I understand why people give up all together. They either sell out, or the stay in the abuse of Christian counsel and leadership, or they never go to church again. I guess we are living in the end of end times. I am sorry to have bothered any of you. Its all in the name mislead soul and I am misguided, confussed and totally lost, I guess its not just church that has made me this way but also the associations outside of church that have confussed me further more. I would be better off to stay at home and read my own Bible. Is this wrong? Or would I be, um excuse the language but I don't know how to put it any other way, "damned" for not fellowshiping? Please do not think that TPC, is to balme for my confussion or state of being. I have gotten some good things out of TPC. I know this forum is dedicated to just one single church, but can anyone honestly say that the others are any better? How much do you really know of a church you attend, or are apart of unless you are behind the scenes or know of what is really going on? I know first hand how sly leadership can be in covering tracks and controlling without even thier own elite not even having a clue.
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misleadsoul
Hum... how to begin? To be dreadfully honest I am stuck. I have grown up in the church all my life and visited every church possible in washington state. I don't know if my problem is just church or the people in the church, but I can't bring myself to ever trying to join a church. Everything I have seen is manipulative, self seeking, money hungery, lieing,selfserving churches, or I've also been on the other side of it to the point of self denial, sacrifice everything, sell things off, If your not thinking of Christ 24/7, then what you are doing is evil, unholy.
Where is the balance in church today? There is none. Now I understand why people give up all together. They either sell out, or the stay in the abuse of Christian counsel and leadership, or they never go to church again. I guess we are living in the end of end times. I am sorry to have bothered any of you. Its all in the name mislead soul and I am misguided, confussed and totally lost, I guess its not just church that has made me this way but also the associations outside of church that have confussed me further more. I would be better off to stay at home and read my own Bible. Is this wrong? Or would I be, um excuse the language but I don't know how to put it any other way, "damned" for not fellowshiping? Please do not think that TPC, is to balme for my confussion or state of being. I have gotten some good things out of TPC. I know this forum is dedicated to just one single church, but can anyone honestly say that the others are any better? How much do you really know of a church you attend, or are apart of unless you are behind the scenes or know of what is really going on? I know first hand how sly leadership can be in covering tracks and controlling without even thier own elite not even having a clue.