Re: Supreme Master Television free-to-air satellite -Ching Hai propaganda
Date: May 14, 2011 11:33AM
I have been following this thread for a while and had some conversation with some ex- disciples offline, I decided to step out and provide my testimony here, I am not claiming that I am the all righteousness, just like what many people did here – we provide nothing but plain facts, truthful feeling, logical reasoning, so other people would make decision based on their best judgment.
At this point, I would image that for most of the disciples who would even come across these lines will have pitiful look on me: “what a pity --- You! Failed in the test!” “You! Fell into Maya’s trap”, even worse, “You! Are Evil with heavy Karma!”…….but I would not care anymore, after one year struggling, I know I am back to myself, I am alive again, and I am still a girl like before, wondering, courageous, truthful, sincere, and full of creativities. I do not need to look up and waiting for someone’s words to feed my mind in the dark room, I am no longer anyone’s pet or slave, I am free again! It feels great! Here is the story from me.
I was always wondering and searching for the meaning of life since I was very little, I found Supreme Master Ching Hai in 2002 and fell in love with her teaching completely, I was like a drunken bee and believed I was one the luckiest person in the Universe. I got initiated by one of the QuanYing Messenger in 2003 June. After that, all my life was about master.
After initiated, I was so eager to see Master in person after hearing so many miracle stories. There are always some disciples annoys me, but I would think this is just small portion, and comparing the eagerness to meeting the greatest Master even lived on this planet, those disturbing thoughts are too trivial to even mention. And plus, it could be my own ego too.
Master did not show up until the end of 2003 (or beginning of 2004); disciples told me that Master was in a retreat by herself. All of sudden, once she come to the public, She started to announce the arrival of "Golden Age", since then, the emails between disciples were stated with "Golden Age I, II....", some disciples quitted job for it since it was believed that there would not be any "money system" like before in the "Golden Age". Soon after that, according to Master, some residents were elevated above 3rd level, and soon after that, Master announced above 99% of human being on earth have
been elevated above 3rd level due to her tremendous blessing and grace! Before her elevation, only one or two sages in India were just a little bit above 3rd level. Thinking how merciful she was by uplifting 5~6 billion earth people to be above 3rd level, it will take millions of lifetime for any individual to climb up to 3rd level to be liberated from birth and death cycle! Everyone cheered and was so grateful! Strangely, Master never mentioned the "Golden Age" and "99%" after 2 years, nor did the disciples.
At that period of time, I started to pick up the culture in the group unknowingly, I mixed with disciples, I lost most of the outside friends, I listen master’s tapes, whenever I was on bus, sitting in the office, laying on bed, walking on street, read only master’s book, recite 5 names to avoid to pollute myself with outside world, basically, I built a world which only I am there. Meditate as much as I can. And of course, zealous preaching to my parents, colleagues, encounters, friends...... And of course, buying master’s everything – book, tapes, DVDs, cloths, pictures, jewelry……I took it as a proud to feel the loneness of being isolated from this world – because we are such lucky minority! I was profoundly happy and content. In short, I was willing to die whenever master is needed.
In the end of 2004, I noticed disciples around me started to purchase expensive herb medicine from a so called Dr. in Taiwan ($300-$500 each box), I was told the medicine can clean your spirit, they started to form up a group led by the Dr. to travel all over the places to bless the world, someone told me a story like a young man committed a suicide by jumping from a mountain into river right in front of them, his soul was elevated to 5th level right away because of their presence. Dr. started to claim he is Jesus, and all his relatives are one of the famous enlightened masters in the history. He even created some words to replace the five names. Disciples around me seemed like no problem to accept everything from this Dr. I had a little doubt in the beginning since I remember master said do not bow to anyone other than her, and soon my doubt was vanished by seeing so many senior/important disciples were into this. Why should I think I would have the better judgment as a new comer?
I did not follow their “world tour of elevating the world by making their holy presence” and buying his expensive spiritual cleansing medicine not because I had more wisdom, simply because I had no money! But I did join their local tour whenever the senior disciples called me, as directed, we attended any events when there are a crowd of people, we would elevated all of them just with our presence, they told me the little soap balls in the pictures that they took were all the high level spirits, I was constantly fed by all of those amazing stories, and I have no doubt about any words that they told me because we are under the oath that we will be truthful. When I bought back the pictures and tried to amaze my roommate, she said isn’t this just a dust in the lens? Since I was surrounded by Dr.’s zealous devotees, I was not raising my eyebrows even the Dr. started to claim he is Jesus, his wife, mother, daughter are one of the past saints like Lao-Zi Buddha……until master started to claim that, actually, she is Jesus.
A 5th resident (Master Announced he was lift to 5th level, he always said, he knew nothing about his level, I would think he was just humble) was sent by Master to XX center by master, all the people followed the Dr. was either asked to repent or issued a "Red ID". Very soon, people were all left the Dr. and joined the 5th level saint group. Nobody mentioned this anymore, like nothing has happened! Nobody bothered to think about what lesson we should learn from this if this was considered as something wrong. After many months, 5th level saint still reveal to people the medicine that they have been taking has human ash in it!! One western sister who took that cleansing medicine loyally could not bear this and cried. I got a little upset --- what is the point to tell people this? Everyone was back to team, what do you want from those poor people. XX Center was crowded with people from all over the states. Back then, disciples were busy promoting master's DVD - "The True Hero". Besides the intensive meditation sessions in the center, construction works, it was more like a market place - people were buying master's cloth, painting, lamps, CD/DVD, jewelry, center also produced some food products to sale, profit would be used in the advertisement on promoting vegetarianism. There was always new fashions, one thing I remembered is that, we were buying a little bottle of pendent, senior disciples who has “connections” would generously gave you some master’s hair and a little bit wood ash that come from the cabin, you can carry those stuff with great Master’s blessing. Almost everyone was wearing that bottle pendant back then.
It was under such intensive atmosphere that I was constantly under the pressure to reach out my packet to buy stuff, to sponsor the advertisement, otherwise, you are not good enough, and you are left out and worse case, you are missing the precious chance ever to elevate yourself!!
Soon came another revolution, it was told by master that the 5th level saint was dropped from 5th to 3rd!!! He left center suddenly in a snow storm morning, right before the foreign group arrived and started the investigation. I was back in China for nearly one month during the revolution. I know
nothing before I left and when I came back everything was completely changed! As usual, some people got Red ID, some people repented, for the majority, they acted as if it has never happened, nobody had answer for this and nobody would even be interested in finding one. I started to ask myself then – those senior disciples, do they really know their level?
There was always something going on in the group. I heard some land that Master bought in Florida was on sale, it was divided into small lots and sold to disciples, $40,000 each. I heard a brother committed suicide, This shocked me a great deal and I was really confused that --- isn't it be taught to us that each of our initiates has a manifested master behind us, many disciples have been saved from various accidents, illness...why master did not interrupt him while he was ending his life? Maybe this is good for his soul to end his physical life like this? (Clean his Karma, perhaps???) I do not know, no one knows, and as usual, no one ever bothered to mention this, we were too busy to save this planet. People are cautious about where to sit and sleep, and whom to meet and touch, because you will be contaminated by
being close to the low level people.
As you know, in 2005, Master started to reveal that she was Jesus, and she was various Chinese emperors, and finally, she was the GOD from 5th level,
and then she was not even 5th level, she actually is from 9th level which you human being can never ever image. You human being will turn into ash if you even cross the border of the 5th level. She started to tell people, most of her pets were from 5th level, higher than most of our disciples. She listed the spirit merit points you may earn or lose for each activity, for example, wearing Supreme Master Cloth and Jewelry for one hours may earn 300 points, listening her lecture or song for one hour is 200 points, shopping will lose 300 points, reciting five names will gain 30 points, etc. and it will take 8 billion points for your soul to get free, I have calculated, even you spend rest of life meditating, wearing master cloth, this can never ever near 8 billion, so our soul freedom is solely depend on God's mercy. Everyone is so grateful. Furthermore, she started to reveal the human beings inside the earth, and above all, earth will be destroyed in 2 years if human beings do not change to vegetarians, and then, veggie is not good enough, everyone should be vegan, then vegan is not good enough, you are encouraged to be fruitarian, then being fruitarian is not good enough, you'd better try Breathetarian, because it is totally possible! Disciples are encouraged to go to Master's new residential place - France for retreat, and you will get more blessing if you meditate near the place where the physical master is located. Some people were asked to prepare a cave, in case of disaster, people can hide and survive. Compressed cookies and water cleaning pill was sold in the center for preparation of disaster as well. Privately, Center was directed to dig a cave to save your life when the catastrophic disaster come, 10,000K sponsorship would gain you a “ticket” to the Noah’s Cave (Project was cancelled due to master’s another instruction).
Master started to reveal the life in the Mars and Mercury, there was human being there, and there are even some alive underneath now!!
More and more information was given out to the public from SMTV, and the news is getting crazier and crazier. If anyone asks me where information is coming from, I would be speechless other than murmuring that it is from my Master’s meditation inspiration. Some disciples were kicked out by this group, and you are not allowed to know the reason because your level is too low to understand. The Amazon book review, the marriage frauds, one thing after another, gradually, I was not surprised at anything anymore, just stop reasoning anything. “Important” disciples would do things more secretly because knowing by the majority would cause big karma for their projects. They will reveal a little hint for their secret mission if they have some pity on such ignorant creature like you who has idea what is going on.
Whenever there is confusion, the answers that I got would normally fall into these following categories -
1. Try to picture this, you are just a kid, spiritually; how are you able to understand an adult?
2. Try not to think with your brain, this is your own ego, brain is controlled by Maya; do not fall into his trap!
3. Master is playing a game with Maya in order to save all of us strategically, do not judge superficially.
4. Master is delivering certain message for certain audience. Do not apply on you if you do not feel comfortable.
5. When you visit a house, why do you like to stay only in the bathroom, and stick your nose in the toilet, there are plenty of beautiful rooms
for you to explore?
Every answer seems make sense to me, but I have to constantly and hopelessly struggling with my mind, I found myself is getting more and more desperate and angry. Then, I asked myself, I regard myself as a student who is seeking a real teacher, and rather, a patient is seeking real consultation, what is the change to me for 6 years? What about other people, do they really know their level? Do I even have a real friend here?
Even though I have puzzled so much, I still very much followed her every word, because after so many years, I am so used to it, because I had no life at all without Master and disciples. But who am I to tell the outsider? If they ask me how do you know the earth will be destroyed in exactly 2 years, I can only reply as - "because my master says so", --- sound like idiot to people with a little common sense, so I am very shy to go out and preach like other people did, I can only admire their confidence, and feel shameful about my level.