Re: Karen Berg's Kabbalah Center Sex Scandals
Date: January 09, 2018 11:24AM
It has been a very stormy week for me since I was exposed to the posts by ExKC members chèvre and teachers like Eran Yehuda Sivan and Ofer Shaal and then the Russia sexual abuse stories.
it has been a mix of overwhelming feelings,
It’s been 8 years since I left and reading your stories /testimonies was healing but painful at the same time healing because it’s like you told my story, the one I never got to tell but painful because I never did.
and so I decided to share my story and not keep silent anymore. No matter what.
And I hope that by doing so more will do the same to end this abuse and suffering of so many people around the world .
I started studying at the KC when I was only 16 always been a soul that searching.
Over the 9 years I was there, becoming a part of the center in every way, volunteering, tithing and feeling like I found THE place the path the right way and what I was looking for in life ..really believing the center’s cause And vision... like so many of you I’m sure.
Towards the end of those 9 years as a student I started working in the TLV KC, As the event planner & manager I worked side by side with the center manger, and that’s when everything changed for me. As an employee I got to see a lot, looking back on it now I remember suddenly people had so much respect for me as if you’re something special or on a higher level spiritually just because you work or chèvre at the center.
As soon as I started working in the TLV KC they signed me up a new teacher “to help me grow” who in my case was my managers husband. Beni halfon.
In our very first meeting I remember after a very short introduction he revealed to me that he had a sex addiction, of corse I was shocked the conversation went that way but I was only a 24 yo brainwashed and convinced the centre was the real deal and really believing my teacher wants the best for me. He was an Authority.
In every meeting that we had he always turned the conversation to sex. I was always so embarrassed. I didn’t know how to react.
There were occasions where he asked me a question any question and while I was replying his question he would shut his eyes like he was taking a nap while I was a speaking, but he had a smile on his face and it looked like he was fantasizing it was obvious he was aroused, I asked him Benny is everything ok? I really didn’t understand it was bizarre.
At the end of every meeting he would always want to give hugs, “his bear hugs” they called it.
It was his thing with everybody, But when you stand in a room behind a locked door having to hug an overweight middle aged 50 something-year-old man Who is also my teacher and my managers husband. Is Very very confusing. It always felt uncomfortable I could feel his body pressed to mind him smelling sniffing my hair like he was getting so much pleasure out of it (A woman knows when a man is aroused. And when his hug is friendly) but it’s just my teacher right? Everybody hug at the KC right ?
But that was every meeting with him always the same sexual contact long uncomfortable sometimes 10 minuet hugs, and as employee being around him everyday all day (being overworked for 16 hours a day underpaid no staff and completely exhausted) he maid my life very Miserable
to add on that I was sufferings great deal by his wife. My manager. Who thought I was her puppet
They both had lots of issues between them And on a few occasions where he snapped and screamed at me humiliated me in front of everybody for no reason and as usual I cried she would come to me and say “I had a fight with him last night he takes it all out on you “
but yet again she would do that to me as well. I was exhausted from working so much all the responsibility she defiantly made me work like a slave from 8:00 Am till sometimes 2:00am
and I would be emotionally abused by him and humiliated on a daily basis there was not even one day that I didn’t come home crying. Those were the four and a half most miserable months of my life.
I think every normal person who would read this would not believe why I agreed to be so harassed and humiliated every day but you really have to understand that mind control mindset the center trains your brain to believe (their Distortion of real kabbalah teachings.) To believe your connection to the light comes from the source of another human being you need a middleman to reach God. Or in our unfortunate case believing the bergs are tzadikim you need to serve and admire and give your all to so you can become closer to the light. And If you have doubts then that’s your “Satan”. Right? With that mindset you agree to suffer and tolerate a lot of miss treatment even though you are strong smart well educated adult, And you feel it screaming deep down inside that there is something wrong, you learn to ignore your most basic instinct. As all of you. I had 9 years of that brain training.
And Beni used psychological techniques (I think the teachers are thought to do that)like taking information he knew about me from our meetings and use it against me
To use everything he knew about me to hurt me.
After suffering for such an amount of mental physical emotional and sexual torture, I remember feeling like I couldn’t take it any longer but I really didn’t know what to do. After One occasion where we had an event and my manager asked me to turn on the lights while they were trying to do a show and then she said turn it off and asked me to change the lights again and again I told her I feel Uncomfortable since people were already in watching the show it was a very Embarrassing moment for me and then he stood up and screamed at me and humiliated me in front of every person in that room for changing the lights, even tho he saw and heard her asking me to.I started crying like every other day at work. I was a game to them to put all frustrations on me.
Or one time where we were cleaning for pesach and since I was in charge of all holidays I had to make sure things were done right. That was my job, I had this salt pack that touched the non kosher surface so I had to go and ask Beni what should I do with it since I was afraid to use it for pessach and since he was in charge of the kosher stuff.
As soon as I entered the teachers room and said - “hi Benny can I please ask you about this salt I’m afraid to “.... and I could barely finish my question when he stood up and screamed at me shouted at me in front of everybody and said who are you to ask questions what I say is what goes ! I was shocked confused I wanted to just ask what should I do with that stupid salt pack, but I couldn’t say a word. I’m a very strong girl but when you feel so small and they make you feel even smaller... I couldn’t say a word to explain I had to run out of that kitchen with all teachers watching it happen! crying again
He would be very sexual and wired and nasty with me behind closed doors play mind games but screamed at me and humiliated me in front of everybody on a daily basis.
That was it for me. I was broken.
I remember We had another meeting after that occasion and after the shorts conversation I didn’t even want to have with him ended he asked to give me another hug like usual. But this time I couldn’t let him touch me. If I hated his long uncomfortable 10 minutes hugs then at that time I was sick my stomach and I said I’m sorry Benny but I don’t feel comfortable hugging you after the way you treated me and he said OK he stood up open the door and said then you’re not worthy of me being your teacher please leave. I left humiliated again.
Maybe 20 minutes later I got a call from the teachers secretary and she told me Benny said - he no longer wish to be your teacher and that I should find you someone else .
Then he wrote me an email -
“With you’re self distraction you manage to make me not want to be you’re teacher.”
And I swear on my life that’s exactly what he wrote.
That was his mind control games with me and later realizing with all women he could get to at the centre.
I had to quit my job at that point I couldn’t take it anymore I was broken devastated in and in a very bad emotional state.
Maybe a month after quitting my job at the center I had a conversation with a friend of mine she was 17 back then.
And that’s where my world turned upside down she told me then he has told her exactly the same words played exactly the same games and gave her those same long hugs she told me about one occasion where he asked to hug her but she was a large breasts girl and felt uncomfortable hugging him so closely she pulled back a little bit Trying to still hug him and not have her private parts so close to his so he said -“don’t worry I’m not trying to fill up your big breasts”
When she told me what had happened I saw a mirror I wanted to protect her like she was my little sister then realizing it all happened to me as well and then after a conversation with another friend they all said I should go to Karen and tell her about it .
I was afraid to reveal who I was since she knew me and I had such a key role at the TLV center I was still under that mind control set to believe the center was good and he was just one bad seed in it
Boy ...was I wrong.
I wrote an anonymous email to Karen Berg displaying all the story telling her every detail of what happen with Benny and the girls &me
I had girls told me they felt like they wanted to die after leaving his room I could relate.
after a few short emails with Karen where she was trying to make me reveal my identity she send Muki Oppenheimer her personal assistant, and lover.At first they tried really hard to find out who we were via emails they send people to try and find out who we were
Eventually with the help of someone who I thought was a friend they sent to talk to me we had to confess eventually in those emails all we wanted was for that bad seed to be taking care of all we wanted was for them to protect us and other girls, muki & Karen promised us it will be taken care of by this following (reminding you I have all emails to prove it all)
1. He will no longer teach women at the center
2. He will go to therapy as soon as possible
3. Will be “exiled” (in mukis words) to the US as punishment
4. will no longer participate in any of the centers the events until he leaves
5. Will be written in his personal fill. And I really believed they will do all of that We never had any intention to file a complaint or a lawsuit it never even crossed my mind all I wanted was this bad seed to be removed that’s what I really believed was the case but the emailing with them back-and-forth all they did is tried to manipulate us to not go public with the story or go to the police.
Emotionally I was a rack I couldn’t deal with it I needed change I booked the flight and I left Israel I had to clear my mind run away from it all .
I came back 2 month later I went to have Shabbat at the center and there he wasLecturing on Shabbat and guess what the lecture subject was-
Yes I had to sit there in tears listening to this man talk about human dignity when I knew he never ever had any human dignity to anyone especially not for women
I didn’t know what to think of it then still hypnotized by the power of the centre
then was 9th of of Av
Of course He did went to the event but not only that Benny was there he also personally accompanied the rav of on the stage the I entire night, can’t even begin to describe how traumatized I was that night.
I Was broken devastated and disappointed. I couldn’t stop crying just seeing him was so traumatic
when I went to the Center for some reason I don’t recall I stood next tothe receptionist desk a girl came by and said hi I’m here to see Benny the receptionist called him and told her to go up to his room for personal meeting so I found out they lied
They lied about all they promised they never had any intention of keeping those promises
I wrote an email to Muki asking him why is this happening and that I am devastated his excuse was “we are building a case on him we haven’t confronted him yet we want to have all the information so when we confront him he cannot say he didn’t do it.”
Muki is very smart he always knew what to say
To keep us quiet. After all Karen didn’t hire him for nothing.
After that happened Karen happened to be at the center I came to her crying I was so traumatized by it all I was asking her why is this all happening why are they not taking care of it but she didn’t have any answers for me I could tell by her reaction she Was not going to give me a swears but I still believed in her! (How blind this cult can make you be.)
and she had
no intention of protecting us what so ever
Benny was making a lot of money why would she do anything ?
Then after being so disappointed I told them that if they won’t take care of it and protect other women I will publish my story and let everybody know
I have A pretty big amount of emails back-and-forth with them trying to scare us and threatening us that if we file a police report or or tell about this to anyone They will sue us and basically make our life miserable
We were just girls young girls so powerless
Believe it or not I stayed a student even after all of this which shows you how deep and Dangerous is the mind control cult is.
And again I booked a flight to Australia I had to leave I couldn’t deal with anything but then something happened to me I was away from the center which gave me very fresh perspective on things slowly by slowly with the help of a very close friend of mine in Australia I begin to tell him everything that had happened and little by little the more I told him the more I realized what had happened to me and that it wasn’t my fault and realizing who Karen and the center really is about , It was Maybe almost a
year later when I finally left .
Overtime I’ve heard from friends of mine in Miami and other places that he was still teaching women of course nothing was ever done he is still teaching till this very day.
They flew him to Miami so we won’t do anything about it
Karen Took everything from me my power my human dignity my rights how can I possibly support such a place my whole world crashed. A Place I believed so much in this vision to save the world I was a part of it was all just a scam.
All it was and still is a well working money making machine
To Karen there is no faces no names no people were not human beings, to her all you are is -$$$
And if you don’t have that money you are nothing to her.
Unless you were sexually harassed and abused then she will give her full attention to get rid of you!
Imagine being at the center since I was 16 for almost 9 years and have all of that crash in front of you like a sweet illusion a bubble that’s burst
I actually became very physically ill with ulcer because of her. Or them
Then I remembered how many donations were kept from me when it was my job to file the report how many things I saw that didn’t add up but I never saw them you always justify their actions... it’s really crazy if you think about it
Then I started researching Different Cults
And the more I studied the baseline and the guidelines of what a cult is the more I educated myself the more I realized how dangerous cult they really are I spoke with A therapist that helps people who left Cults and he said-
it takes a very long time to heal after leaving a cult some people don’t heal fully for many years .
I decided I could not keep quiet any longer and I decided to share my story as much as I could but all I got from people was their back’s don’t forget the KC Teaches us that he if we have doubt it means we have satan and nobody wants to be around you cause you ruled by Satan now...I even got messages from women telling me that I summoned it and if it happened to me that it’s my fault and my responsibility to take and that I should do my spiritual work instead of going against the center it’s amazing to me even till today to understand how deeply involved in a cult do you need to be that even when a woman or young gilrs are telling you and giving you a proof that she was sexually harassed and that there is wrongs in the center, you still don’t believe a word and instead of support I got many knives in my back from people who I believe to be my friendsThe center was my life and now I had nothing I don’t wish anybody to go through such a difficult mental and psychological trauma and maybe that’s why I’m so thrilled and happy to see all of you share your stories Karen may has a lot of money and can Destroy you in court with The best lawyers but she cannot sue us all if we all tell our stories
I want to encourage each and everyone of you to share no matter what your story is maybe you’ll save a soul.
You’re probably asking yourself why I never filed a complaint well not only that I wasn’t able to emotionally physically or financially I just couldn’t deal with another crisis breakdown or a heartbreak it was too much stress for me I really couldn’t deal with them anymore so I decided to move on with my life but I have to be honest there is still a part of me that wasn’t healed because I never got the chance to really share my story share the truth scream it to the world so everybody knows! but like I said it takes years to heal and untie those thoughts conditions you were taught for so many years A distortion of those amazing teachings is what they did they took the pure beautiful Kabbalah and made it a business to make money.
I wish all of you who don’t know they are slaves to the system you are good amazing people and the tools are real and what you felt at the centre is real because it was us our unity but everything you learned at the center is false from the basics. this is not the real Kabbalah
No one can take your power from you you don’t need a middleman to connect to God the light is with in you .
you don’t need no one to connect you to the light because all you are is light.