I'm having a damned beer. Yum. Cheers to John and Jack. To hell with the Mormons. It's another Mormon joke. OK
Forum: Large Group Awareness Training, "Human Potential"

I could go for a beer about now. I can't hunch anymore. They train you to stand tall with good posture. I have a hunch my drinking and hunching days are over. I will still do art. I'll always have projects for friends and people. I'm planning to do a mural in my town. A scene that depicts the town when it was first settled. Horses hitched to a railing. Sheriff and a general
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Thankyou for that info. At the time they made that movie the actual descendents were all sad about the Mormons not fessing up to what had happened. I learn something new every day. Thanks.....FF
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You're making me laugh again John Fox. I love you sideways smile. :-( ...oops :-) ....Better. FF
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John Fox you're too funny. Wierd coincidense. I just rented and watched a movie tonight about a group of Mormons in Utah 150 years ago that slaughtered a group of pioneers (I think almost 200)on their way to California. True story and not in hardly any history books. First time i've heard of it. They claim it was the word of God that told them to do it. It was an act of revenge for
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Pink1- I wouldn't believe whoever told you that you'll never be fully well. Yes, your experience will always be with you, but it doesn't define who you are. Remember always that you grew up with so many lies it's difficult to sift through them all, but it's not impossible. Just remember you are a free soul that had a really crappy experience. What makes it difficult is
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Hey- I'm an artist too. That's how the cult witch snared me into the "family business". I have a natural gift for drawing/painting/sculpting. I had many years to hone my skills slave laboring for this dictator. That was my only saving grace- the fact I was doing something that I had a natural love for. It's really pathetic though how publicly she took all credit for eve
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In my opinion, I think on occasion rules need to be broken. If a bit of humor is needed to carry on then so be it. Sorry, but I think Rick would understand. Cool. A couple of Australians. I won't even mention what I think about our government and the history of this country. Well maybe just a peep. I knew a native American a couple years back. Let's just say this- It's really sa
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I want to go to the zoo. Now that would be good therapy for me. I'll hang out with the monkeys and box with some kangaroos. Hee Hee... FF
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Cool. That's all I have to say. Some day I want to go to Australia. It's a place I've always wanted to visit.
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I think hate is a very basic emotion. The difference is who is doing the hating. If someone assaulted you unjustly in any way shape or form it would be rediculous not to defend yourself. In order to defend yourself you must first require an emotion of fear or hate of what is being done. Survival mode kicks in. Obviously if the person is a non loving soul full of dark intentions their hate
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Thank you Rick Ross for the creation of this forum. You have been instrumental in the healing of so many. Bless you and have a safe and successful year. You are one person I truly admire for your determination. I've gained so much inspiration from this web sight and I hope to help others in turn. Thanks! Freedom Fighter
Forum: "Cults," Sects, and "New Religious Movements"

Hi sadkimmy, I came across your writings and can identify. I too have left a cult about 14 years back. To make a long story short it fucked my life up a great deal for a long time. Even after leaving I just wanted to gain some personal freedom from all the dictated things that had been enforced upon us for so long. My mom got us into this cult and it all originated by her meeting a woman in a bi
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Hey Jack, Thanks for the breif discription. That's all I need. Trust me, I understand all the rest as a result of my own experience with a cult. Yes, they do take away critical thinking. That's their entire goal. A person in any type of cult situation is turned into a drone. I escaped a lot of mental abuse by living a double existance. I pretended to agreed just so that I could sur
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Thanks Vic-Luc ! It's sure nice to hear and have a support network. Rock on!!
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Hi John, Thanks for responding. That was fast. Happy New Years by the way. I'm looking forward to a better year. FF
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I apoligise for being unaware, but I'm wondering what Landmark is and how they work? I am a cult victim myself and had a terribly isolated upbringing and after I left at the age of 28 I just tried to get on with my life. I never bothered to investigate other cults around the world. but now since writing on this forum I'm trying to be more aware of other peoples situations. Would anyone
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Do you think the average person can come up with composed music like Bach or the intelligence of Einstein? Well there you go. Mohan knows his evil. He's the polar opposite of the two geniouses. The average kind hearted human just can't fathom or anticipate someone that horrid. They are slick and swift and knock you down before you can even figure what has happened to you. FF
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Just a point to make for all those who claim Mohan is a loving caring person: Sociopaths make it their lifes work to imitate and emmulate love cleverly disguised and twisted. They make a point to treat a certain number of individuals kindly so they can have a following of devotees that think he's God himself. While under this realm he does his horrid acts to the other selected vi
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Some day I would like to write a book about my story. I have three sisters and a mom who all have their own experiences within this cult. It would be interesting to weave all of our experiences together in one book. I saw a documentary show on TV one day about Jim Jones. His son was getting interviewed and he was recounting his experience and what he thought and felt about what had happened to
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Blah Blah. That's how I feel too. A circle of the same info of these sick cults destroying peoples lives in the same way. The problem with me however is that I can't forget about it or change the subject or pretend it never happened because I owe it to the boy who hung himself and my family and myself to hear the truth. I can't walk another step on this planet under a veil of denia
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I've witnessed and have been a victim of abuse as a child in a cult. I recently got a police report on a death of a child within this cult I had been in. The cult leader's family said this kid, age 16, had accidentally killed himself in an attempt to get a high off of self induced asfixiation. They told us he had a music tape in his house that he had been playing that related to a girl
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Hi Deelly, I want to say hello and welcome. I really feel better after writing this topic and seeing all the different comments and stories of individuals. Really makes me feel like I'm not alone in the alien feeling. I too felt like there was always something wrong with me. I even knew it was a cult at the time of leaving around 14 years ago. It's true about the blank canvas. I&#
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Mary Roberts is a cult leader. Crate Prospects was her company facade. Fucked up a few great families. Small time cult but equivalent to Hitler. Just putting the name out their for anyone who cares. She is a human devil. In good old Minnesota land of the free she kidnapped us from our families and held us captive for all of her sick selfish mind controling experiments. You didn't fool me for
Forum: "Cults," Sects, and "New Religious Movements"

becker, I feel the same way. I feel more than what I actually put in words or say about these cult issues. I admire or rather get inspired by what others write. I think that the whole personal experience is not only too harsh but sometimes it's difficult to put emotions and feelings on paper because they are soooo complex in nature. I was inspired by the way corboy is able to analyse and pu
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Jupiter, I do need a friend like you. I've always been a giver and it feels strange for me to say I need someone but this road to recovery has been a lonely one. I too wish I could be face to face with you. Besides my sister and psychologist there has been nobody that can really understand the depth of these cult issues. My mom is slowly facing things but being around her is draining becaus
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I feel my past is surreal. Like it's so bizzare I can hardly believe that it actually happened. I feel like it was in some other lifetime. Strange how I get that feeling.
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Corboy wrote: The leaders have a talent for making followers feel infinitely obligated and grateful...but in a crunch, the leaders show themselves incapable of loyalty and gratitude. THat is when the leaders are unmasked for what they really are...tiny kids in adult bodies who are incapable of the loyalty and gratitude that are the foundation of adult, peer relationships. Cult leaders are great
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Corboy, I know all too well the inner workings of a cult and it's cult leader. What I find amazing or rather perplexed about is how some get totally duped and others made it out. I think I know why I wasn't tricked into fullblown brainwashing. I was around the age of 11 when this woman really started to get her claws into us. I always saw,even at 11, how many double standards
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Cactus, Thankyou for your positive advice. I'm on the brink of seeing the light so to speak within my experience. I'm persuing a career in law enforcement and I want to shed the last hold that this cult past has on me. With all the insight on being entrapted in bad circumstances I figure I have a lot of resources within myself to tap from. I have always felt that if I could just get ov
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