Honostly, I didn't even see the connection there...sure is funny. I'm sick of this dink head Erhard. FF
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I feel all cult leaders are cut and honed from the same evil hunk of steel. I was in a little mom and pop cult. They used a business as a front and did their dirty work behind the scenes. They snagged us in by typically using our best talents to their benefit. My whole family was quite talented artistically and also really impressionable to the idea that we'd be keeping a business alive
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Let's all pop some popcorn and get ready for some dark comedy. Ha ha ha... FF
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Thanks pulseins.....it is just a matter of time. One thing I have realized is that my past can't and shouldn't be forgotten. When things resurface it's a reminder to me what I've survived and how strong I really am. I have to look at the positive. I never forget because it shouldn't be forgotten. I am another source for someone else, who may be in or going through difficu
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I escaped from a very small cult, but the damage is identical. It only affected a few families. However, being I was victimized as a young child and into my young adult life it was a long time before I could really look at all the aspects of how it affected me. Detachment is healthy in certain situations. It isn't always an escape from reality. It's sometimes an escape from the horr
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Zorro, A huge congratulations to you!!! I'm so excited to hear a success story. You're a stick of dynamite the way you don't let anything drag you down...you're inspiring to me. FF
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Why do people have to go through another or a group to be enlightened? To be saved? Makes me sick. The problem is people fail to use their own instinct. What ever happened to basic survival. We should take a lesson from the birds and the bees. Keep it simple. Holy shit anyway.
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You know after reading all these posts, I do believe it's all good. I don't think we can get through the hellish experiences we've all been through without popping off on occasion? I have to agree with Vic-Luc that he can drop the psych mode and just be like everyone else on this forum. I think we're all intelligent enough to understand why blood boils a bit here. Who the hell
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Thanks Zorro. You know what I'm trying to tackle? Getting into the toughest Law Enforcement program in my state. I'm twice the age of all the other kids who will be in my classes. I'm working on physically getting into shape like a madman. I'm a woman by the way. I've made leaps and bounds and overcome my physical limitations and mental limitations so far. I'v
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Does anyone have any advice on how to completely rid bad memories of a cult past. Is it even possible. The memories of emotional abuse seem to keep coming back no matter how much I try to heal. The more I advance the more these dark memories flood back. It's as if an internal battle of positive and negative is on a war path in my mind. It never seems to ever leave. Maybe I'm just ha
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Shed the shit and move on. You're inspiring me Zorro. I love your attitude...
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I recommend the Dick and Jane book series. Do you all remember when we were kids and life seemed so much simpler? See spot run. See spot run from cult. See him run real fast. See Jane run now. FF
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Zorro, When I'm down in the dumps it takes a story like yours to kick my ass back on track. I'm sick of the past creaping in and grabbing me always when I've made positive advancements. I always act like I'm the only sucker on the planet with a f**ked up past. The memories of the past are always too intense and I'm left feeling like I'll never make my goals or she
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Exercise is good. It's getting me over a chronically injured whiplash injury. I used to whimper about carrying something heavy cause it would give me headaches afterwards(Migraine types). Now I'm able to lift heavier stuff than ever. I still get head aches sometimes but they don't interupt my day. Definitely works on getting the moods lifted. Unless I overdo it then I get in the du
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I remember reading that book a long time ago when I was home sick. Ill from a flu or ill from the stress of the cult I was stuck in-I wasn't sure. I stayed in bed all day and picked up that book for the first time and read it thru. It was my mom's book. She had it sitting around for along time. I recall that it gave me an escape for a day from my horrid reality at the time. I rather
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Yes. No need to duck. :-) ff
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I'm currently enjoying "in the moment".
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I second that motion. Very sincerest and warmest, might I add. Third the motion....... FF
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You know I wasn't going to say this but I will now. I'll put it up for target practice instead of the standard silhouette target. I'd probably improve on my glock accuracy. Just for the record-joking here. Just for the record-good idea, though. ff
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As we're on the subject of projectile vomitting, lets post a picture up of our hated cult leaders, but first put it on a photo adjusting program and put devil horns and a forked tongue on them and put it with duct tape- don't forget the piece for their mouth-symbolism works wonders. Then as we leave the house to go to work we can spit on it or whatever matter we want to fling their way.
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I agree with the throwing up. There's been times resently that cult background has collided with present ambitions and caused such turmoil I could have barfed literally. My ex-cult leader at times makes me feel like projectile vomiting in her face when memories surface and I have no outlet to rid them. I literally have this vision of barfing up every disgusting thing she crammed down my
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I can feel your sadness. My love goes out to you. It's beyond unfare to lose a loved one in that way. There's just no getting around the sadness. I understand how you feel. I mourned for my brothers as if they died-to me they did. I saw the decline in their fighting free spirit. They physically got drained and emotionally turned over to the pressures and threats of the cult leader.
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I understand. I do a lot of that and also way too much between my ears. I actually looked up Stockdale Syndrome. It took me to a rather interesting story of a certain prisoner of war. Anyway, now I'm just blabbering out loud. :-) ff
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Thunderhrtlotus, This is a message board for "former cult members and affected families" who can state their mind, opinions and facts as they have experienced them. This is not a court room nor is there a jury present. You are attempting to accuse dora of story telling, while all along you're telling your story of dora. Do you know her? I sure don't either. Fact: do
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Hi Vic-Luc What do you mean by Stockdale Syndrome, Stockholm, same thing in your case. FF
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I think you should get your facts straight Thunderhrtlotus. I do believe there are many rape accusations backed by a lot facts and angry individuals. A trail of messed up lives he leaves behind. I support dora 100 %. Freedom fighter
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Very well put. I believe in some cases, such as abusive spouses, the victim becomes addicted to the "But I still love you". The abuser has the ability to play the good guy, snare a spouse, obviously someone emotionally dependent, then keep a cycle of violence going. The victim then keeps going back to when they first met-the memory of when he was so kind. "But I still love
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In my opinion humor is a blessing dropped on us from God himself. How can humor be under rated? Sure if you're in total denial of facing your problems, and you use it as a permanent irritating crutch. However, humor in my experience can be very healing. Sometimes when a person is going through enormous amounts of adversity of any kind, humor can ease the trauma and get you through. It�
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John, Every word is true, because I know from experience. Thanks for posting that. It couldn't have been said any better. It would have been nice to have met Jan, but in a way I guess we have through you. Thanksyou. Sharon
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That I agree with. A trip to Australia may come sooner than later for me. For as long as I can remember, it has been a country I've wanted to visit. Now I have no excuse to not make it happen. I do beleive we could all have a great time! That is something I've had a huge shortage of within the majority of my life. I'm a really down to earth person. I think I'd fit righ
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