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Nichijew
I took the liberty to put your experience on my blog. A Japanese speaking commentator wrote:
Thank you for your efforts, Nichijew, and I hope that you will pass along my gratitude to the blog commentator who responded to my post.
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blog commentator
You will find that if you read the Lotus Sutra and gosho (not the ones translated by the sgi as they change the words...) you will be able to get an idea of what the eternal Shakyamuni's teachings were, are, and will be, and Nichiren's description of them.
Indeed, I have found this to be true. By consulting source material for myself--including more of the so-called provisional sutras (which I had found appreciation for prior to the SGI) and an edition of the Lotus Sutra written by an author not commissioned by Ikeda--I have furthered my understanding of my Buddhist practice as a whole in a way that I would not have received via the organization. The effects of this enhanced understanding are interesting to say the least. When I hear members of the Ridiculously Empowered Elite (otherwise known as those with higher leadership positions) speaking on some passage that they'd pulled from the Lotus Sutra, the interpretation that they give is almost always in opposition to my own. If I ever needed more of a sign that the time for departure was ripe...
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blog commentator
In the teachings of Shakyamuni, there is no mentor. It is up to you and you alone. You take responsibility for your life, from the eternal past, the eternal present and the eternal future. It can be rather intimidating to some that it's all on yourself but that is what the teachings say. There is no pilot. You fly your own plane.
happy searching
I understand that my progress, when it all boils down, is entirely up to me. No mentor or guru can liberate me; only I can. When I lament the absence of a mentor in this organization, I speak of the fact that, of the Three Jewels, the sangha component is sorely lacking. There is no community through which I might share my struggles and receive encouragement or proper guidance. When a pupil is struggling with some aspect of
zazen, the roshi does not step in in place of the pupil and propel him onward; he simply counsels him on a course of action that may spell freedom from that particular impediment. I would ideally want to see those qualities in a "leader" of this organization. If I am chanting to undergo internal purification, and I come across some road-block, it would be nice to have a leader who has gone through such a trail and who can advise me accordingly.
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backnforth
Welcome Bodiseeker:
I love this very important point you made:
" . . . . . . . however, and there is a strong internal guidance that keeps whispering for me to do something about my unease."
I hope more and more and more people will be able to quiet themselves long enough to hear the same whisperings. But they keep the leaders and gullible members so busy just so they won't have time to think . . .
Thank you for welcoming me, backnforth, and it is a pleasure to be here.
That internal guidance is one of the reasons that I continued to practice meditation even after I'd been introduced to chanting NMHRK. When my mind is quiet, and I bring that still focus to some issue that I'm grappling with, the answer often comes to me in the form of a sensation, hence the foreboding that I described before. I don't think that I am unique in this quality, but it is easy to lose sight of it. Your diagnosis of the organization keeping people too busy to hear their internal guidance is particularly apt.
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doubtful
Welcome, welcome, welcome. You have come to the right place. I was an active member for over 20 years, a district leader for about 6. Everything you have said is felt by many in this forum. I started studying Theravada this year so you and I have done this in reverse but arrived at a similar conclusion. I continue to love the Nichiren practice which I do faithfully. I continue to be grateful to SGI and Ikeda for bringing it to me and others. That's where our relationship ends. I had a 2.5 hour heated discussion with a member recently. He called me to find out why I have not been around. He tried to give me the justification for the MDM by giving me a protracted history of Buddhism he got from Ikeda's Flower of Chinese Buddhism. In fact, everything he relied on was SGI approved or produced literature. It's no wonder how he arrived at the idea that since mentor-disc is traditional(I knew that already), Ikeda displays all the necessary qualifications. Every time I tried to reason with him about some of SGI's obfuscations of the truth, its suspicious financial practices, and its super-earthly focus on material gain it was like talking to a sleepwalker, a robot--or a cult member! I even used that word. He is actually quite knowledgeable about Buddhism and he is very educated too but when he admitted that he "worshiped" Ikeda, I knew that I should not have wasted my time. That experience taught me that people are ready when they are ready. You obviously stumbled upon this message board just when you needed to, as many of us here did. Those determined to accept anything SGI tells them are welcome to do so but from this point forward I shall not engage in anymore discussions with current members who contact me. My policy has been to not call any members for any reason simply because trying to open their eyes is not the role I wish to play ("my mission" in Gakkai-speak). Now I am moving to the next level (which is something you may have to do eventually): I will ignore all calls from members because the peace of mind I have been enjoying since I left last May disappeared for a few days
I think that that is a healthy attitude to adopt with respect to the SGI and your time in the organization. You have come to see that the organization, as it stands today, is not for you; having said that, you also realize that your experiences in the organization weren't all negative. What's more, you're able to show gratitude even to Ikeda (which is a strong push in the direction of a Buddhist ideal, equanimity) for bringing you to the practice. I think I'm on the same page.
I've been fortunate in that I haven't had to--yet--explain my dwindling participation to anyone who would challenge the decision in such a way as the member who called you. My district leader is sympathetic to my feelings on the situation, as are the few true friends that I've made through the organization. There will undoubtedly come a time when I'll have to do battle with some head honcho (one in particular comes to mind...but I won't mention his/her name out of respect) who has decided that my practice is insufficient in the eyes of the One Mind, though. I'll draw strength from this forum.