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And what about you, have you yourself not suffered enough from all this already? The responsibility lies with the trainers and owners, who are fully aware of the potential dangers of their courses and just carry on regardless, and who are the ones who profit from it, both financially and in terms of their delusions of grandeur and power-lust. Anyway, I have found your posts here very helpful and I'm sure a lot of other people have too, so I hope that is maybe enough to enable you to forgive yourself, even if only a little. Sorry again for preaching ..
After all that has happened I think I deserve what I get. This has caused me so much pain that I sometimes feel like I'll never recover. I have good days and bad. I miss the life I had with my first husband. I know even if I could find him that it wouldn't work; I only want to tell him I'm sorry.
As for my friend her ex-husband told me about Alice and her breakdown. She ruined her marriage too. In the short time after her return from PSI7 she left and divorced her husband; she lost her mother to cancer, then found out she has cancer herself. She figured she had the power to change the things in her life for the better and when they didn't work out she was driven into a deep depression. Now I know that my recruiting her into PSI was not the reason for her mothers death or her getting cancer, but I do feel that if I had never interfered in her life and got her to go to PSI she would have had her husband, family and friends, in her life to support when she needs it the most. Now she has no one.
Maybe someday I can forgive myself for this, but it's not going to be anytime soon.