I was going though my dad’s computer and I learned that my mother had attended these PSI seminars before she left and divorced him. My dad wrote down his thoughts and feelings almost everyday and they were always about my mother, and how much he missed her and how much this had hurt him. He would write he could feel her presence, either driving in his car or when he went out to eat, and he would get depressed when he realized she was not there and not in his life anymore.
He researched this group and found all this information about PSI Seminars and other lgats and how destructive they could be. He never told any of us what mom got involved in, and after reflecting on the past five years I can see how my mother’s behavior fits the description of some others on this message board. I remembered her coming back from one of these classes and asking me to take it, but at the time I was in college and had too much on my plate. I also remember her being somewhat put out that I had turned her down; now I’m glad I didn’t go. The relationship with my mother has been strained over the last few years as I want to love her, but only because she’s my mother; it’s not because I like her as a person after she attended this seminar.
As for my mother she has had several failed relationships over the past five years, has spent several thousands of dollars and has nothing to show for it. When she asked if she could come to the funeral I told her; no what would be the point. She didn’t respect him in life why pay your respects in death. When she asked what I meant I told her that she had a commitment to her marriage and she failed because of her selfishness. I told her that her leaving had “changed” my dad. I told her that I hated her for what this had done to him. I only know that my dad loved her more than he loved himself; and he didn’t see anything wrong with that.
It’s just not right.
I thought I was done with this and moved on; but I guess I was wrong. For some reason I have been thinking more and more of my wife. After reviewing all the posts I've missed I can see this effects more and more people everyday.
The post from Jen made me feel very sad. Sad for myself, sad for Jen and the loss of her father. Sad for everyone who lost a loved one to PSI.
And Jen it is not right....