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The more that I look into the world that is LE I am beginning to feel that it is a reverse matrix: First you live in the real world(with all of it's problems and realities), then you are hooked up to a machine(presto! everything is prefect). Is this similar to how you see it? You have a great perspective on the LE world and I would like to know more of your insights.
When and how did you "wake up" from the LE nightmare?
I dont think you see the world as perfect inside landmark what you feel is the high while you are on the machine and the crash when you come off the but high feels so good! You want more because its not a high made by drugs, alcohol or anything physically harmful. The high is harmfull but its effects are harder to spot because it is emotional and intangible.
I have a good perspective because I was involved for many years including being on staff for 18 months. I was coached to death (well almost anyway)
When and how did I wake up, when was a slow process really although at the time it was like a bang. I realised after many coaching sessions by my manager and the regional manager that I had lost all my self esteem. I didn't even believe I would get a good job so when I looked for a new job I took one that a 18 year old could do.
Physically I was also drained. Staff is a 150% committment. I would arrive at work at 8am to get things done before the other staff because I had to answer the phones. I would leave late. I was told I was not friendly enough I was told I was over friendly, I was told I was not committed. I worked six days a week and usually got called in on a sunday during courses. I got into debt because the pay was so bad. I ended up in hospital because I was coached that sickness was a story and racket. and finally realised I was being used.
I have been away from landmark completely for a few years and I am finally more like my old self (well so my parents and friends say) I had to rebuild friendships. When I started at my job I didn't know what to do with myself during non work hours!
well this has kind of ended up as a little vent of all but I hope it helps you understand a bit more