Dearest Pastor Jackie,
You did what you could. You stood up to Mike while the rest of the elders played "See No Evil, Speak No Evil, and Hear No Evil." Mike knew what he was doing. He duped and defrauded people including you. In action and deed he is nothing more than a criminal conman. He carried out a vendetta against you meant to destroy you personally and professionally, and again his remaining elders played "See No Evil, Speak No Evil, and Hear No Evil." Luckily many saw through Mike’s accusations against you. No weapon formed against you could prevail.
I would say to you about faith and hope. Jesus never disappoints us. Those footprints you saw when you were going through this ordeal were his, he carried you during those times when you did not think it possible to go on. He knew the Father’s plan for you and it was not to harm you it was to benefit you. Trusting mere men always disappoints. Trusting God and holding tight to the hand that Jesus offers you never disappoints. Hold tight to Jesus hand and persevere. The light at the end of the tunnel is growing brighter and larger.
D of D
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Many have said that this site is evil and slanderous and full of gossip. I would like to go on record as saying that I do not agree. This is a site to discuss distructive churches and cults. A site that is designed to warn people of danger in the church. I admit that at times there are posts that lack integrity and contain much sarcasm. However most of what has been said on this forum is true. At least from my experience. If you had asked me 14 years ago the turns my life would end up taking, I could never in my wildest dreams believe what has happened to my family over the last two years. Although I am stronger, I am still a broken woman, one who is struggles to trust. My heart is skeptical of much, and my faith is weak at best. I believe I have repented for my own part in allowing deception to carry on over the years, for taking part in lies, for being weak in my ability to stand up for righteousness. Maybe my struggles are just plain ole consequences to my own actions. I am almost relieved to have been told by the TPC consultant that TP was and possibly still is a CULT. That we all, past and present leadership had drank the proverbial 'cool-aid'. This at least provides credibility to what a lot of us have gone through and provides a starting place for healing and moving on. To come out of the secrecy and not hide anymore. I am not ashamed of this journey I have been on. Yes, pained, but not ashamed.
I am confounded by the lack of inaction on the part of TPC to honestly take a step forward and admit the complete truth. Yet I understand that they have much to lose while at the same time nothing to lose. I admit that I am dismayed by the events of the last few months, but have come to realize that this trial will always be a part of who I am, and will follow me the rest of my life. The hope is that it will not define me. That my healing and freedom will come. I am just grateful that I still have some sanity left, and I actually hold on the verse that says '... beware when all men speak well of you'. I get that one.
I had a realization the other day, when I heard that the Villamor's had sold sizable gifts given to them and church property as well, in a garage sale for monetary gain to help them 'escape' Marysville. It made my heart sicker than it already was. They sold a jeep that a family had given them and used the money for part of their stewardship pledge. I am sure profiting off of others gifts is common place, but it shouldnt be among those in the church. They sold church property they had taken home from the office. They kept high end lap tops the church had purchased. They sold the harley that was given as a gift to honor them. They sold a drum set given to them. Wouldnt it have been nice if they had just given back the Harley, offered to give back the drum set, and said absolutley 'NO' we cant take the churches property, it just isnt ethical. And then even given the Jeep to a needy family. We all will give an account on 'that day'.
Although I felt some vindications when the Elders repented to me and after I had gone over all the so-called evidence. Which I was able to address without any hesitation. I have yet to reconcile the fact that there are those, who after knowing the truth, continue to honor and lift up the Villamors. Even those who are dearest to my heart. I did not understand until the other day when I heard about the drum set sold to people close to them, the truth of who Mike and Cyndi Villamor are. It just hit me, I must be a bit slow. Paul through out scripture warns of those who have turned away from the truth. I will continue to warn others of false apostles and any wolves I may know that are in the body. I will name them by name. This is NOT GOSSIP or SLANDER. I honestly didnt believe that Mike could have it out for me so badly to go to the extent he did to discredit me. But he did. He really believed I was the cause for the decline of the numbers at TP. Oh to have such power. I take some satisfaction in knowing that I am still here, living in Marysville, running into people daily that saw me as a thief, or a criminal, or even those that turned their backs on me. Yet there are others that stood with me as I have lived out my life day by day. Oh to have run away... like some I know.
I also must say that my heart still loves. That love was not stolen from me. I love many still at TP and pray that the cool aide has stopped being poured. At the meeting I had with the Elders, one of the things that was said by someone close to me at the end of the meeting was that they feared TP would end up just pushing through this and not really stopping to 'deal with all the wrongs that had happened'. Could this be?
I would like to say to those of you on this forum that supported me thru-out this nightmare, Thank-you from the bottom of my heart. Life goes on, and I am 'moving on'... or at least trying.
With love, Jackie Singer
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