For anyone who is still wondering if they might have been wrong about Mike and Cyndi...or might be wrong about TP in general...who might be thinking about going back...or who, like Ostracizedone, have been told that you can't possibly be able to discern truth because "you've walked so long in the darkness" before you began following Christ, please consider this observation about those of us who have been in the process of sorting things out...
There is this strange waffling that goes on with folks who have been victims of cult leaders. Here's what I think happens.
1. A person--who has OR has not been walking with the Lord, it matters not--comes under the influence of a charismatic personality whose preaching and teaching present an ideal kind of spirituality--a spirituality the leader (either by confession or implication) claims to be living and thriving in. Who wouldn't want that? Every non-Christian who longs to discover what life is about and every Christian seeking to grow in their faith will be attracted to what appears to be an authentic model of what they are aiming for. (I sure was!)
Note: I think Mike was authentic when he started out, but his fatal flaws--the broken places in his soul from unresolved wounds and unyielded pride--caught up with him. Of course, as all of us know, these things catch up with us when we don't let God's Word and other people talk to us about them.
2. Under this charismatic leader we learn some good new things, have spiritual growth experiences, participate in ministry in exciting ways, and make some real progress in our spiritual life. We benefit from our leader's influence over our lives, and we invest our trust in him/her.
3. Once we invest our trust, we then invest ourselves, our finances, our time, our family, etc., in supporting him/her and his/her ministry. In short, we "buy in" fully.
4. Once invested, we are not longer very open to the possibility that we made an error in judgment. We don't want to hear anything negative (even if it's true) about this leader we've gained so much from. We place them on a pedastal and, at the same time, they (if they are not vigilant) begin to grow confident in their own spiritual worth and prowess.
5. Under these circumstances, a cult leader is formed of the once-humble preacher/teacher we love. The authoritarian mindset grows in him/her. We don't feel adequate to question or confront. He/she too believes we are not adequate to do so.
6. Since God's Spirit of truth dwells in all true followers of Jesus Christ, even the most recent convert can, by God's Spirit, recognize when something is amiss, but he doubts himself because he thinks "What do I know?"
7. A huge irony grows in this situation. As the cult leader grows more diabolical in his/her thinking, he/she becomes less able to give and receive truth, and the recent convert who may have "walked in darkness for a long time" in their life previously, but who is listening to God's Spirit and reading God's Word is now more able to discern and point out truth than the leader. However, the insecurity that the leader feels from having his/her authority challenged, paried with the insecurity of the congregation member who feels that he/she cannot possibly be right and the leader be wrong, creates the perfect environment for abuse, counterfeit, and disease all of a spiritual nature.
8. Then because of all of the spiritual deception, abuse, and sickness a person experiences in that environment, there are monstrous challenges when he/she leaves--challenges with feelings of betrayal and lack of trust, with confusion about whether or not a person can trust their own judgment, and ghosts of that cult-leader past still casting their spell--whispering accusations, condemnations, false judgments about our ability/inability to discern truth.
9. This leaves the person waffling between (1) anger when moments of clarity come about what is true and what is not; (2) guilt for having those feelings; (3) fear because of wondering whether the cult leader might have been right about us after all; and (4) confusion...How will I ever know what's right now? Some of what the cult leader said was true. What if all of it was, and now I'm lost? I sure FEEL lost. It was better when I didn't feel this way. Maybe I'm all wrong.
It's horrible to live that way! I know! The best thing I've found--maybe others have discovered other things--is to decide I will dismiss ALL of what the leaders told me, even what they told me about scripture. They proved themselves untrustworthy, and it would be quite the process to sort out all of the lies from the truth. Do over. Start over. What is the pure and simple Gospel? Start there. Read the Book of John and don't hold on to any of Mike's surmisings about any of the passages he may have preached/taught from. Listen to the Word itself. Let the gospel reach you in it's very own power, on its very own merits, on its own terms. It doesn't matter how long you've walked in darkness in the past. In Christ, you have the light of life. You are now in that light, and the Bible says to us, when we come into the light through salvation, "Now walk as children of the light." God wouldn't tell us to do that if we couldn't. In Christ, I can do all things because HE is strenghtening me by His Spirit.
I sense despair--or maybe it is just frustration mixed with some level of discouragement--in some of the postings here. I want to let you know, that even though we do need the body of Christ to encourage us (and us it), God's Spirit of truth is faithful and capable of leading each one of us into ALL truth as we listen to and follow Him in the light of God's Word. You are fully qualified and capable as a child of God in these things. Glory be to God who has hidden these things from those who think they were wise and has shown them to the "babes" in Christ who come to Him with humble hearts to learn from Him.
I'll leave you with this from Numbers 6:24-26, NIV:
"The LORD bless you
and keep you;
the LORD make his face shine on you
and be gracious to you;
the LORD turn his face toward you
and give you peace."
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ostracizedone
This has been stated before.....to be an true apostle you would have had to walked,talked and been taught by Jesus himself.You would have also had to have been witness to his resurrection.I do not think you are going to find too many, if any (scarcasm) modern aged fellers who fit that description! Simply put ,it is a plain ol' good and simple,man-scam! I did confront Jeff Barnes with love,and a few beers (my bad!)face to face in front of hundreds? I actually agree with him on almost each and every point he ever made about my shortcomings as a father and a husband,because he was merely re-iterating what I had already confessed to my wife and God where my failures. I do not know about the rest of you,but,in my humble(more scarcasm)opinion Jeff has never done or said anything to me personally to make me think he is hopelessly lost,no-one ever is! If Mike is out of the picture great,let Jeff have a shot!If he is truly just a Figurehead,let God be the judge and either move Jeff to remove himself or be replaced by someone!As far as what could be the death of TPWOC,I have an feeling it would be not removing the Villamors as owners and not removing Ron Olin and Jeff Koellmer as elders! But.........As Villianmor told me face to face,"You have been walking without the Lord in your life for a long time now".....so.....What could I possibly know?
Edited 2 time(s). Last edit at 01/23/2011 03:50AM by LearningPoint.