On this website, you wrote "In all total I have had 18 hospitalizations and four psychotic breaks due to this experience."
Langdon, you have been writing about this group for years, since 2015 at least. Your history is easy to find by performing a simple Google search.
If somebody told me that they'd been hospitalized 18 times and suffered four psychotic breaks in ten years' time, then I'd have to conclude that this person is mentally ill indeed.
Get some help, friend. I do not judge you. I've been hospitalized too. I am neither a lawyer nor an MHP, but I strongly believe that you need way more help than a lawyer could provide you with.