Hard to determine what topic I fit under
Date: September 17, 2021 02:29PM
I was on this site years ago when I seperated from an abusive threapist at 34. Went through reporting him to State. Long stroy short, he is no longer able to practice....Though still does, as a "Life Coach". I knew prior that he could. He can't live without feeling as if he is a "savior". So much so, that he even started his own off-shoot religion after I left him. Nuts, right? Yea, but just one part of my cult extravaganzas.
I was basically given away to another family when I was 12. I still lived at home, but my parents had no problem with me not being around. Problem is, it was a cult that I was handed over to. A small, narcisstic cult. Not like a specific religious cult leader so to say, but mom of this family also happened to be a therapist. So, her cult following, to this day, includes her clients, and the very few friends that she has. There was indoctrination, gas lighting, blah, blah. You name it, it happened. It took me 30 years to get out. BUt I got out, all on my own. With my own mind, my own choices - and that is a victory larger than my own life.
I feel as though while it's great I got out, I still notice so many brain fcks that I have to unravel. I was trained to hate myself, and I am done with it. I've worked on it for years, but it was always so elusive. Now I get it - trained. I was trained from a mere babe to feel that, because it benefited someone else. So sick.
My story is weird and long. Summary is hard, and is impossible to write within a single post. Just looking to see if anyone is out there.