Re: Gurdjieffian magical beliefs and us-vs-them mentality
Date: October 27, 2007 11:45PM
OK Jupiter, so your people were Gurdjieffians. I know it was so for many early on there.
That's one more reason why things did not work out for so many people. Thinking too much! I was trained, as a child, in the basic Christian beliefs.
So I "tried" to find them all fulfilled in my "next step".
That does not make a connection between the two belief systems, just their practitioners.
And I stress that my own Inner Guidance is as much a result of my personal, solitary, communcaton with God, through prayer, meditation, surrender, call it what you will, as it was a shared thing. Keeping others "In" the "movement" is not my care, or job.
I can not entirely dismiss the founder of Subud as a liar.
I do not need his guidance and advice to relate to the God I believe in, though i find some inpiration there. Idid meet him after all. He was just another human being, like you and me, with a different task to do in life from ours, and different tools to do them with.
And I think that fasting on Monday and Thursday is mostly rubbish, not to mention any other stange ideas about how to make ones self more spiritual, lent, ramadan etc not withstanding. I don't believe in them either. Not part of my Christian beliefs.
I think being spiritual is both a gift from God and a surrender of one's own selfishness and desires and life itself to that higher power, which I prefer to call God.
All the controlling mumbo jumbo tha goes on in the name of Subud, and "other Spirituality", is not getting anyone anywhere.
I have many grievances with the people who run the Spirituality dogmas in Subud, because they are often just so horrible in how they deal with people and their feelings. You say you were controlled and misled. I was simply hurt. You are welcome to say I was also misled, if you must.
My belief that each person must obtain a personal contact with the Power and Life and Love of God is untouched by anything anyone in Subud or out of it says.
Like I wrote before, it's a matter of not throwing the baby out with the bathwater.
I started my first experience of the thing I came to call Subud entirely alone, with just God as my witness.
And that is how it lives still, knowing more than ever that I am so much less than perfect but, like you, one of God's creations, and in His care, once I have accepted that, forever.
Some of the wierd things you experienced seem never have happened to me.
But your life itself seems to me to have a lot of blessings, and help, which you seem to be starting to develop. Hence my earlier humble statements of admiration bordering on jealousy.
Peace.
Bronte