I got this from one of the PSI "Teams." This girl losses her relationship with her boyfriend after coming back from PSI 7 and expects to continue her relationship without the "what" would you call it. I wonder if he just got tired of being with the "new" person that came back from "the ranch." I actually feel sorry for her. I wonder when the light will dawn for her.
Team433@yahoogroups.comCarolynn" <sauterellegirl1@yahoo.com
Hi Everybody,
It's my turn to ask for some support...
My boyfriend broke up with me Wednesday night. I'm hurting pretty
badly. The hardest part for me to deal with right now is that I know
I gave the relationship 100% and yet, it wasn't enough for him. Even
he said I had been fully present and giving. However, he chose to
focus on negatives and they expanded to a point where that was all he
could see and he felt we couldn't have a future together. I chose to
focus on the positives and had an entirely different experience.
I needed to reach out to my friends, ask for support and feel the
love that I know is out there. I know that I wasn't to blame for
what happened. I got to feel love for another person and because
it's unconditional, I can go on loving. He doesn't have to love me
back. That's a pretty good deal. I created a relationship that
focussed on the positives and because of that I had a different
experience than he did. That's neither good nor bad, it just is. I
know I'll be okay and the healing has already begun. I have a loving
God, wonderful friends and a family that love me. Not to mention my
own personal ministering angel in feline form.
That's not to say that I'm not still hurting. I am still grieving
and it comes in waves. But, as one of my beautiful girlfriends
pointed out, I should enjoy those times too because it means that I'm
still feeling.
I realize that I learned alot from Psi 7. Not the least of which is
to ask for support when I need it and that it's okay to be messy and
imperfect sometimes.
I'm working on Saturday and I have church Sunday morning, so I'll be
busy, which is good. I'll be able to get through this weekend
alright. I know I'm on the upswing and things will continue to
improve.
I love all of you and feel so blessed to have you in my life.
Carolynn
I just had to share this with all of you. I just got off the
telephone with a good friend I met at my Basic, who has also gone
through Psi VII and PLD.
He suggested that I could still have that #10 relationship with my ex-
boyfriend if I want one, but that it may look differently than what I
had imagined it to be. He suggested that I be a really good friend
to Tate and that we continue to be a part of each others' lives.
That felt like a huge risk and that I would be flaying my heart open
every time I was with him, but he pointed out that I was coming from
a place of scarcity and victim. I love the honesty of my Psi
friends!
When I think about the hurt I've been feeling, it's because it felt a
little like a death, that I would never get to spend time with him
again. The prospect of having a great relationship with him, with no
pressure and no agenda other than to be great friends just hanging
out and supporting each other, the weight immediately lifts from my
heart and I feel like I've just climbed over a wall. Another example
of the power of not knowing how to do something, asking for support,
and tapping into the great wisdom that is out there. Now that's a
switch!
I'm going to be contacting him today. Wish me luck!
I Love you guys,
Carolynn