looking for help
How long were you involved in LE before you became an Intro Leader? Did they make you big promises about becoming a paid leader? Did you give up your outside life and friends? Are you recovered and if so what helped you recover?
It took me about 1,5 years to become an introduction leader. The more I was involved in Landmark the less time I had for my outside life. I have friends from school that still are my friends but they were really tired of me when I tried to recruit them. Some told me to stop talking about the Forum and trying to get them to do it. Of course this created a feeling in me that they were not on my side - so why spend time with them? That's how it works - you become more and more drawn into Landmark and the people that have been "transformed". It's really ugly how these things just happen. When you try to blame Landmark it is not their fault of course.
As to having recovered or not; I would have to say no. I have a good job and a lot of friends. My life has gotten back to normal. But I still have feelings/thoughts of "not living up to my potential" "playing small" and so on. All these thoughts are Landmark thoughts and I have a hard time
sorting out what thoughts are mine and what has been implanted in my brain by Landmark thinking.
The reason I started to post on this message board is because I am in need of handling this dilemma. It is very hard to set the criteria for when you are recovered. You have to set them yourself I guess. Use your critical thinking.
No - they didn't promise me any big bucks - Just HARD work.
As you probably know all my time that I spent in Landmark was on a volountary basis. I felt that - "no, I would feel ashamed asking for money - the forum leaders are working their ass off - they should have the dough - I'm OK as I am...."
I did ask the forum leader I was butlering how much he was making.
He replied frankly "I made 44.000 Pounds last year" (I guess the equivalent of ~77000 USD). That made me think that he wasn't extremely well paid and I really shouldn't fuss about it. He might have been honest but it might as well have been a preprepared answer to my question.