Okay...lets back up.
Key part of the recover process is, feeling tired of searching for someone to look up to and wanting to try things for oneself.
Here, for starters to Brynhild and others new here is this:
Go to the section of the Ross Institute website and read the material on characteristics of dangerous groups.
This list of 8 criteria by Robert J Lifton is the classic start point.
Keep these 8 characteristics in mind. Because some cults will quote tiny bits of Lifton, but give just an incomplete version of his list or twist it around so that their own group seems benign. Always go to an original source--in this case Lifton. Dont rely on some guru or group's use of Lifton.
Next, go to this section of the website
Read all the stuff that is high lighted in blue.
Finally, if you think you have been in a hurtful group, see if it is listed here. Run a search on the search slot in case it is in the general section.
If there is material, read about it.
That is the startpoint. Many persons who have posted on this message board over the years said that they began by reading the Lifton material first and found it useful.
After this, then you can get more benefit from the discussion forum.