Today was a day filled of depression and memories of abuse by MOL. I'm still shocked how alive the phrases and doctrines still are. The repetition of the "stupid" phrases and the outcry for "Gourasana or Kalindi" to help and deliver us from this planet of suffering is implanted to my memories cells. MOL is simply another cult filled with the desire to control and milk the members or followers.
Now I see it, after years of denial and confronting the issues in my heart. It is clear to me that I got emotionally raped and taken advantage of. Nevertheless, I also know that I do not want to go back to the darkness of a self announced leader. Luckily, I was able to experience the intrinsic lies of the teachings thru my involvement with the business and fundingteam.
Thank you Lori for your posting. I was only affected by the 2nd hand affects of MOL by living with a very active member. Although I have been out of the relationship, the depression and stress was so heavy. Dealing with the aftermath of the excitement of the intensives, the cult personality was so very stressful and sad.
Do you know of the "MOL victims and survivors support group"?
It clarified so much for me, and got me on the road to recovery along with Rick Ross.
I know what having repetitive thoughts that hurt you is like. I always pray for God's healing and peace. That has helped me a great deal.
What concerns me is that many of these groups might really damage a person's relationship with God. I think more than emotional, psychological, physical damage, damaging someone's ability to feel God's love and trust in Him is the worst type of damage. However, God's grace and mercy shows up in the worst situations. After much suffering there comes much grace. I hope you can begin to see this as well.