When I first got out of the cult I did consider the fact that I was just crazy or perhaps too demonic to understand what had happened there, so talking about it and knowing that others had same/similar experiences has certainly helped me a lot to begin getting on with my life. If I could help anyone else in the same way I would be very happy with that.
TheTruthAsItIs :lol: gooseheads. I appreciate the nice things you have had to say on this and the other thread. I keep trying :)
I finally got through reading your whole blog. Very sad. But you are one of the lucky ones to wake up and get out. Think of what could have happened if the wimp kept you around!? Keep venting and breathing. It only gets better. Forgive yourself. In the words of an old soul riff, "...everbody plays the fool, from time to time..." Aaron Neville does a particularly good version of the song. It takes more time than you can imagine to throw off all the influence of being in this cult. But you'll get there.
I am an old veteran from the early 70's to 80's. From reading your blog nothing has really changed except it has become more secretive, exclusive and controlling. I was gone pre-homophobia. I left before the fines and before Wai Lana became the new Katyayani "clone" or oriental promo chick. Do they claim that Mrs. Guru is a pure devotee too?
Did you ever meet Siddha in person or did you just place garlands around his pictures and watch his videos?
I still think the stories from ISK[b:b12468d926]con[/b:b12468d926] are just as weird when they try to invalidate JG -- from one cult to another!!! If it is true that ACB Prabhupad made an issue of Siddha getting a garland first instead of his stupid framed photo on a vyas asana -- it's all the same garbage!
I often wonder what happened to my peers from that time? I have only found a few who got out. There were some really great and talented people -- (along with some real jerks). I'd hate to see them again after years of having their spirits crushed in the cult............
And the women seem to have all become such dowagers!
I was really amused by the part in your blog where after you saw a video, some fanatic told you that people just don't get everything at first...... Siddha really didn't mean that the US should invade Canada because of it's liberal position on gays..... it's an advanced lecture for someone new......etc. [b:b12468d926]It's just that you haven't been brain f*cked enough yet![/b:b12468d926] Advanced lecuture!???? :lol: Those old videos are simplistic and unsophisticated. I was so mortified recently when I saw a lecture again -- where was my brain!??? How did I lose so many IQ points for so many years!???? But I got over my embarrassment, as you will too.
Don't forget the Noni farms in Hawaii are also SOI fronts too. If you read the whole thread [b:b12468d926][i:b12468d926]Krishna Group in Hawaii[/i:b12468d926][/b:b12468d926], you'll find the links there. You might want to add this to your blog.
print lectures can be found at this site: