The lies that were told to me were concerning very basic biblical doctrine. Such as the God of the Old Testament being false. Leading me to a place where I believed I blasphemed the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit was really the spirit of the earth. Jesus actually came to save us from the god of the Old Testament. The God of the Old Testament is the god of dominion. Yadda, yadda, yadda! I think this
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Thanks for the reply. It has been 8 yrs. since that time and I have done a lot of work on myself since then. I have been to many counselors and am now involved in a cult recovery group. It has been a long time since this happened but because I only spoke with this man over the internet and phone I really never believed I was "in" a cult. I now acknowledge that yes I was in but not physi
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Sorry I have not responded earlier to your answers but to be honest I have been struggling so much that I don't know what will help. My situation is a little weird because I only knew this fellow for around 2 months. During that time online and extensive phone conversations he was able to do major damage to my mind, will and emotions(soul). It's hard for me to explain what happened beca
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I am stuck in fear that something happened to me spiritually and changed me in such a way that it cannot be undone. I went through great depression crying uncontrollably but it was because I felt like my spirit was crushed. I am trying to work through those stages that hit me so forcefully when I realized what happened. It has been 8 yrs. and still every morning I wake with "him" in my
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There is now this small voice inside that stay with me. It only bothers me when I pay attention to it. I guess I really don;t have any way to silence the voice permanently. I do get scared that somehow it is a spiritual connection that cannot be broken. The experience I has with him was so powerful I was convinced that I turned anti-christ. Of course this is that last thing I want. So, I still st
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Thanks for the responses. I have been seeing a professional counselor for about 2 months now and I think it is helping. For 8 yrs. I have never met anyone that came into contact with the man I met. I have searched but never found anyone. This made things harder for me because I tend to think that maybe it was just me after all. I posted a question here on this forum about that man. Yesterday some
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Thanks for the response, I remember talking with him on the phone and I told him I "know" who you are. He said if I tell him who he is he would tell me who I am. Very weird, but I know he wanted me to call me father. I did not say it and I'm glad I did not. When he realized I was not going to move to his small town cult that was when everything turned evil. I remember praying a lot
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Thanks, I'll check it out..
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I am looking for the time when I can really feel that I "was" in a cult. All be it a very short time the damage has bee done even until today(8 yrs ago) I want to learn to talk about this time without bringing the past as if it were yesterday. My memory is bad and often times I get lost in my thinking about those days prior to almost killing myself. It's like a bad horror movie tha
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My experience was 8 yrs. and For a while I thought I was doing fine even though in the back of my mind I think about the leader and it scares me. Now I really want to get passed this, my counselor says I'm stuck in the past and need to move forward and stay in the present. But. sometimes it is so overwhelming I feel like I am in a trance and can't come out of it. It all seems so demonic
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Has anyone ever come across the Natural Intelligence cults. The one I was exposed to was a couple named Steve & Suzanne Patterson. To be honest after all this time I think his cult teaching was really a front for satanism.
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