Sparky,
I have always been drawn to things the Rosicrucian Order, AMORC teach. Such as Meditation, Energy Work, Metaphysics etc. In fact, I first began meditating at the age of 12. When I 18 while looking for information on google about Astral Projection the Order came up, I looked at it and I felt drawn to it. I joined and havent looked back since.
With regards to Ritual, you can find Rit
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