My wife and I were talking about spiritual pride today. I said I am getting full of "freedom from the cult" pride because I now have a voice and I feel the friendship from so many on this site. A voice is a wonderful thing to find again. Hopefully, I'm not getting too proud. Maybe I'm just loving who I have been created to be. Hope so. That's how I feel about you all.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Changedagain: You make me laugh. Thank you. It is so true when we had a cry for help the silence could be deafening. I love the songs of help we sing to each other. The morbid ones that make us laugh are the best.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

I remember the direction for prophesying the deaths of John F. Kennedy, Castro, and Kissenger. Oh, yeah, and Martha Stevens. My wife loved Martha. Martha was very kind to her when she worked at the Blix House in 1976.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Nancy B ... so thankful for you and your help and so many other courageous ones on this site.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

My wife and I have been visiting this morning about man worship and sticking one's head up another man or woman's butt. Satan said to Jesus, "all" these things I will give to you if you will bow down and worship me. Jesus said back to him, "Fuck Off." Ooops, I paraphrase. "Begone, Satan! For it is written, You shall worship the Lord your God, and serve Him ONLY.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Yes, thank you changedagain. Jesus even said he trusted no man, because He knew what was in man.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

I woke up today in a really angry pissed off mood and I'm not repenting for someone telling me I have a bad spirit. I'm so mad that I was told from the beginning that questioning authority meant something was wrong with me. Heavy bombardment was continuous from those in authority to destroy our inner voice and God-given confidence towards Him which even affected just loving being in our
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

I'm male, which I guess you figured out. So this was a homosexual attack. Sorry there have been so many additional attacks in this category also as well as so many other sexual categories.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

I was assigned to stay at Wayne Barton's place by Anaheim hospitality when I came down for a "feast" about 1973 from Campbell. I was brand new to "the walk" and came down with a group from Campbell, CA for the feast (Passover?). I was in the Army, about 21 years old. I got into a bed (couch in his living room) he let me stay in to go to sleep and he jumped in bed (which s
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Changedagain: Yes. I'm sorry I didn't break free much earlier. You and the other old time posters have provided courage for us new posters to help us find our voice, plus what Shalom has done for all of us. I am thankful for you. Leadership cloaked in so much darkness, we are now shining together to burn away the darkness.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

YES. Did any of you see a weekly Sunday Newspaper cartoon clip in the 1960's called Hipshot? A Montana cartoonist, so it may have not been syndicated nationally. Really funny cowboy, the whole Montana Prairie, Sunrises and Sunsets was where he attended church.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

I'm getting therapy from a psychiatrist regarding my pulpitphobia; chasing me in my nightmares. They have jet engines on them; but recently I had a flame thrower in my dream that burned them up. Thank God they were made out of wood.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Changedagain … thank you. John Sayer in PL brought quite a few words on people having anger management problems. He would read from some author about it over the pulpit (can't remember the book). He would call people out over the pulpit from time to time; to make sure we were all quaking in our boots when he brought a word. I don't ever remember anyone being called out for anything o
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

It is so weird. I still get afraid and flinch when I think of certain things. I'm actually a little scared right now to share this, for fear John Sayer will come to my house and kill me. Please don't quote me on the following, but the words are pretty close to what was said. One time a few years ago we had a little intercession group at the PL church led by John Sayer. He would get t
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

I remember Damon Davis on the property and a guy named F Sharp, who was pretty funny as I recall. Damon came up to Campbell once in about 1974 and took a group of us on a field trip hunting edible plants in the country. He told us about a lot of the plants the Indians ate. It was actually a very fun day. We were all preparing for the apocolypse. When I go for walks I still enjoy seeing Curly Dock
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Since I found this site, one sign I know I'm starting to heal is I'm starting to laugh again; even at (with) myself, including being kind to myself (and others) when I make goof-ups. It's OK to make each other laugh; no more beating myself up like I was taught to.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Changed again: Sorry. I think it was KBoy. He revealed his real name in an earlier post I saw from little red flag and I forgot his sight name here was KBoy. I won't say his real name here in case I'm wrong in saying his real name.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Sorry. Another mistake, above posting to changedagain should be July 1977, not July 1976.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Thank you changedagain. I think I lived with you for about one week in July 1976 across the street from Church of the Living Word if you are who I think you are. I was on the top bunk in a little (tiny) house and you were on the bottom bunk or visa versa. Don't remember how many people were living in that communal house. They moved me to Moombeam House from there I think before I got married
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Sorry for my earlier "typo". The word "backroom" should have read "bathroom". My "typer" reputation is going downhill. I wonder if Gary ever has cleaned his own bathroom.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

My wife remembers printing SOP (School of Prophet) manuals at the Living Word Building but wasn't allowed to collate them because only certain people could read them. She thinks only pastors were allowed to collate them as they were being put together (she asks not to be quoted on that, because her memory is vague on that time period).
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Does anyone else remember in the early 1970's when the school of prophets manuals were being printed and people were selected to be able to participate in reading them under the supervision of your head pastor? (i.e.: Howard Klein in Campbell?) When a new one would come out, I think we had to sign for it, make sure we came to class so we stayed in good standing, and not share the book with p
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Yes, thank you Shalom. I echo what Reepicheep said.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

My wife asked me to convey we are thankful the Lord was and is always taking care of the details of our lives. Dire circumstances and crap head people don't and can't define who we are.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

After my wife's money ran out, she got a job at Singer Sewing company in Panorama City for I think $1.35 / hour (min. wage) and still worked full time at LWB in printing. I worked at the saw mill in Iowa and Shiloh for $80/month from June 1976 to June 1977(also got room and board). My wife and I got engaged by letter; and JRS sent me to LA in June 1977 to LWB to work in the printing. That is
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

To Denise Waller Laughlin: My wife came from Iowa to work in the word work in 1976 after she graduated from High School. JRS talked to her and assigned her to the Blix House and then to the Living Word Building in shipping and printing. She had saved $400 which lasted a year. She would like to thank you for making meals at the Living Word Building, which was the only meal she got during the we
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Thank you Reepicheep. So true. I posted on pages 846-849 (one about Gideon's 300). Very thankful for Shalom, and the three courageous women filing sexual abuse lawsuits. I still feel the only thing that saved Peter from his condemnation when denying the Lord was when Jesus changed Peter's focus after the resurrection to making loving and caring for the sheep (people) THE ONLY issue. Not
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

I think the Marianne being refered to is Marianne Nagy. She was my wife's maid of honor when we were married by David Cokas in the Valley on Sept. 25, 1978. My wife was at Blix for a short time in 1976-77; then we both worked at FineLine graphics from early 1977 to about the end of 1978. I typeset this weeks and she worked in the bindery. Marrianne also worked at FineLine Graphics. She died
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

Damascus, My wife and I add our love to your marriage. We experienced the "divide and conquer" type of counsel many times over the years regarding our marriage in an attempt to undermine and destroy what God loves, for the sake of wrong authority obtaining control over what was not their right to touch. Your love for year other, and God's love for both of you, I believe is th
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families

I sent Onion a private message but not sure if I did it right. Onion, please let me know if you got my reply.
Forum: Former Cult Members and Affected Families