Quotewhat2dojr144, you need to stay out of the sweat lodges. I think too much of this activity has fried your brain.
If I read your posts correctly, and that is hard to do with the ramblings, you have drifted from group to group. If that is the case, maybe you need to stop looking for a group to fulfull you, and tell you how you should feel. Just try standing on your own 2 feet, w/o any group,
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Large Group Awareness Training, "Human Potential"