I also want to write about what happened when I first asked for help. The next day I settled down enough to call Paul Black, the Ohio organizer who facilitated the event. Paul began to offer an inventory of my moral shortcomings then tried to impose Landmark teachings on me. When I said I didn't want to hear about Landmark Paul said well, then, he wouldn't help me. It took two years
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Helpful as always, kdag. My brother is also pleading with me to break off contact with them. Mediator is a life coach and, thus, is not bound by any code of ethics or licensing board. Today I wrote an email to Mediator and cc'ed it to Jason Weston telling them I wanted no further contact. I am going to continue to work with my therapist and if I have any future contact with HAI I will ha
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Mediator really is playing games with me, telling me that I should not only be over this by now but that I should have no triggers left over from my childhood. The thing is that I have a much more extensive background in psychology (master's degree) than this life coach has and know intellectually that she is being ridiculous but she is screwing with my head. She started out with all this
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Oh my god, thank you for this. I was feeling suicidal. Mediator threatened me today stated she would not "support" me if I don't keep quiet about HAI. I posted a review of them on Facebook. I did that after waking up from a nightmare about what happened. I am having to leave the city I live in because of them.
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I just feel so angry. Jason Weston tells me that I can go back into HAI in another community as long as I talk to him and mediator first. So I should want to go back into an organization that allowed me to be sexually assaulted? And I should have to clear it with Jason, who kicked me out and left the offender in? How sick is this?
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How ironic, Jason's mediator wants me to switch therapists now that my anger is focused on HAI and not myself. (Sarcasm.) Paul Black, Mo Fritz, and Eve Baird are angry that their names have been made public. The mediator thinks I should be completely over it by now-she would know, being a lawyer and a "life coach.". Hmm, do you think anything self serving is going on? It feels l
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To the person who private messaged me to contact an evangelical Christian ex cop, I am not interested. I grew up in an abusive evangelical home and am not interested in trading one cult for another. I came onto this site to warn people about HAI, not to become part of your agenda.
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I think you called it right, kdag. Actually, crback22, I "need" to do what feels right to me. The reason that I dropped the charges 2 years ago is that I found the process overwhelming and demeaning. Like many police departments, the Walton Hills, Ohio PD are not enlightened in the way they treat sexual assault victims. I am not going to the expense of a lawyer just to retraumatize
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Also, HAI is allegedly developing a sexual assault protocol. The mediator emailed me yesterday and told me she would no longer be able to talk to me if I was condemning of certain individuals in HAI because "HAI is very important to her.". Objective much? Currently HAI's sexual assault protocol is to blame the victim and use her confidences against her. Love, love, love
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No I did not tell them I would drop it and I did not sign anything. In fact, I told them I was not making any promises of confidentiality and that I reserve the right to tell my story by whatever means I chose. I am aware that Jason was acting in the best interests of HAI and does not care about me. I cannot get them to understand that the way they reacted to the sexual assault-kicking me out
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Its over now, supposedly not allowed to have attornies present during mediation. There were times that the mediator got on Jason's case e.g., for kicking me out and allowing the perpetrator to stay in. However, I question her being a member of HAI. At one point the mediator seemed to be making the point that me being suicidal was less significant because I was suicidal 25 years before. A
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I am feeling pretty low today. It seems that Jason Weston thinks that I should be over being sexually assaulted by now or, in his words, "resolved it.". Let's all keep in mind that Jason has a bachelor's degree in philosophy and no credentials that would make him a mental health professional. The professionals I have seen have agreed that HAI's reaction hurt me worse th
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Thank you, Kdag, that is the hardest thing for me to remember, especially when they were all ganging up on me and stroking each other. Thank you to everyone who has made supportive comments. They talk love, love, love but they become very scary when you cross them.
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I: m not sure. why but my last 2 posts did not go through. I was reading through the entire forum and saw the letter from Janet Dale in which she signs herself 'Pure Love.'. Once I called the California office crying, experiencing flashbacks and begging for someone to talk to me. Pure Love hung up the phone on me.
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SeekingTruth Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > Bye - bye - Janet Dale !!!!!!!! > > Those keeping up to date with HAI affairs may know > that after HAI founder Stan Dale passed away a few > year's ago 'ownership' of HAI passed to his living > second wife Janet Dale (it was a polygamous > family). However then HAI Global, a
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A loser named Matthew Hellrung, HAI devotee, contacted me on Facebook and accused me of having "effectively shut down the Ohio community for several months.". It seems I was wrong to complain about being sexually assaulted, I was supposed to take one for the team. NOT! This is an example of how sick some of those people are. If I did shut down the community it would be my proudest acc
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I have thought of making a website detailing my experience so people are forewarned. Get as much negative publicity out there as possible. When I went to a HAI leader about being sexually assaulted at an event he tried to use Landmark strategies to convince me that it was no big deal. He then went on to attack my character and to cover everything up. Upper leadership is being very slow about
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They treated me as if I were an object of no worth. I was kicked out of the group while the offender was allowed to stay in. They said that was because they didn't want me being triggered by him. Their only concern was for protecting HAI. These same people post on the internet about how loving they are and what a safe space they create. They are hypocrites.
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Everybody please listen. I was sexually assaulted at a HAI event. HAI has responded with cover ups, manipulation, and blaming and devaluing me. I am planning my suicide. Please stay away from HAI, especially women. I don't wish this on anyone.
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I went through and read everything on the thread over a year ago. I specifically want to hear about sexual boundary violations and how these are handled.
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I would like to talk to someone who has had their sexual boundaries violated at a HAI event. I absolutely do not want to talk to HAI apologists or anyone who wants to claim that it never happens. I know from firsthand experience that it does and, in my case, the victim was ostracized while the perpetrator was allowed to stay in.
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I realize that it has been several years since anyone has posted here but I need to tell someone about what happened to me. I was sexually assaulted at a Human Awareness Institute event almost 2 years ago. The leadership all closed ranks and ostracized me. Under duress they are all now trying to fix it but it is obvious that the real concern is the wellbeing of HAI. I feel very suicidal. I f
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