Powerful re-post changedagain, thank you Date: December 13, 2019 11:12AM From October of 2018: Re: The Living Word Fellowship, The Walk, John Robert Stevens Posted by: Liamthomasusa () Date: October 30, 2018 03:03PM QuoteI just read the Woodrow Nichols book... filled in and clarified a lot of information that had been cloaked in secrecy “need to know” .... I had just married one of t
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Reepicheep Wrote: December 13, 2019 06:15AM ------------------------------------------------------- > I heard that Bowman Littleton died in the orient, > still searching for the "real" thing after he > realized that this was not it. So sad. WOW! What can I say? thanks for the information. I recall Bowman saying " I get my best revelations when I do ___ (some drug
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Thanks Puddington and Northerngater for validating that I actually made sense in my post on December 09, 2019 08:58PM Re self nurturing and therapy. It has been so long and hard to pull this crap together. After a long health battle I am emotionally and physically closer to a healthy goal. Cult Ed forum has been, gratefully, the opportunity to get the snap shots of the Walk out of my memory
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Good points Northerngate when you wrote on 12/12/19 "The problem I see here, is that normal people, the kind that we want to be around, can’t grasp the depth of what we’ve been through and how we deal with it daily to become healthy. It’s like looking in a glass window at a restaurant watching other people enjoy, but the separation is there." People don't want to know = they wan
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Northerngate; I did experience to the max that I could tolerate... then what did I go and do? I fell into a the delusions of a narcissistic socio-path who pushed me to write a book about her - (sh-shh I was not supposed to tell that she created everything.) With me having a sign on my forehead that screamed vulnerable sucker use me! I felt comfortable befriend a person with the same kind of b
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Northerngate, yes, I can see that about Eyes Shut. I tend to blunt when I'm ready to blurt. Good for you being kind to yourself - -so be careful not to put pressure on yourself to heal. 35 years out for me and I'm still healing. Puzzle pieces and words will send me over at times as well. I have to take a break fora while them binge read. I see tremendous progress in exposing an
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Hello dear people, I woke up with with newer puzzle pieces on my mind that relate to the threads on Rick Holbrook 'having been molested'. That does not surprise me at all. I can have empathy for any child being a victim.* As an adult there is no excuse for him to do what he has done. There is also no excuse for his mother and his step fathers to cover for him. ( I got that out of the
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GoingRogue re-posted a Post by Onion on August 07, 2018 09:35AM and made some good comments. I think this entire thread is worth reviewing and valuable to any newbies who have not be able read and digest all 1,000+ pages. We've asked the question over and over as to why the Hargraves and other TLWF leaders did not stop the abuses, but, went to great lengths to cover up criminal acts.
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Northerngate, it has been tough for years to process. Take it slow and easy. I've had a ton more flash backs,again. The interesting thing now is that I am no longer disturbed as i once was. New pieces of the puzzle will trigger me. I have been able to be better rested and in a more healthy state than I had been. Being in a less medically vulnerable state with those pieces, I have mor
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Northerngate replying to your comment December 10, 2019 06:14AM: WOW! What can I say? Aren't we all paranoid about looking paranoid? Well, there is the excuse it was "your guardian angles protecting you?' bullshit that was used on me by an un-related narcissist psycho path decades after I left the walk. The equipment is available for any creep with e to buy and use as t
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larry bobo Wrote: l Date: September 19, 2018 12:01AM I believe it is worth re-posting along with the rrmoderator comment. thanks Larry and rr mod. ------------------------------------------------------- > kBoy said: > “It would have been difficult for anyone who spent > any significant time in the fellowship to have > avoided the disaster known as 'designated' &
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Northerngate in repsonse to your post on Date: December 07, 2019 10:44PM and other posts, i wish I had a an answer for you that fixed everything - I don't, but, I'd like to share my thoughts, good, bad or ugly. First off, I am also a writer. Doing research on narcissistic socio-paths to undue the damage of my first novel and the circumstances i accidentally found this forum. Did go
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changedagain Wrote: December 05, 2019 02:18AM ------------------------------------------------------- > 1,314,935 page views to date. I'm sure at least a > few of the readers detest what is going on here, > but I suppose if we're doing anything meaningful, > there's bound to be those who are hostile toward > it. Exposing what has been hidden for many years &g
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Northerngate made this relevant statement Date: December 03, 2019 04:10PM "I found something good today while reading during my lunch break: Shame thrives on secret keeping, and when it comes to secrets, there’s some serious science behind the twelve-step program saying, “You’re only as sick as your secrets.” I want to add something to the 'secrets and shame'thoughts in reg
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kBOY Wrote:December 04, 2019 06:05AM ------------------------------------------------------- > P U D D > > Regarding the internet, it does cut both ways. > Those with smarts to tailor their message (and > squelch opposing voices) can present themselves as > the new 'Wizard of Oz' and ensnare a whole new > generation that believes everything on the > int
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Reepicheep Wrote: December 06, 2019 05:07AM ------------------------------------------------------- > Here is a link to a TedTalk by Dawn Smith. She was > raised in a cult and talks about her experiences > and how she left. One thing she said during the > talk was: "The hardest day of freedom is better > than the best day in a cult". That really > resonated wit
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FCSLC Wrote: December 04, 2019 02:38AM ------------------------------------------------------- > Sitting on a rock surrounded by sagebrush in The > Great Salt Lake Desert imparts cleaner energy than > any laying on of hands. That’s been my experience > since escaping TLWF circus. I agree with changed - happy to hear form you, FSCLC. "escaping TLWF circus" is an e
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Onion Wrote: Posted by: Onion () Date: September 26, 2018 03:04PM ------------------------------------------------------- > 40 Years - I agree with some additions. The > forensic audit needs to also look at the Trust > managed by ApCo as well as offering and spending > records for any account used to construct the > amphitheatre, the Rayen party house, the horse > barn
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changedagain Wrote: December 03, 2019 02:40AM ------------------------------------------------------- > 'I Alone Have Done His Will' > -Senior Pastor, Apostolic Father and Chancellor > > (a living word from 'The Meek Will Inherit the > Earth' series) Would it be sacrilegious to barf?
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JesusJesusJesus Wrote: Dec 2, 2019 ------------------------------------------------------- > Also, as of 12:39 local time, G and M's apt is the > second highest priced item in the whole auction, > behind only the baby grand piano. It's also got a > gold star indicating that it's very popular with > over 70 bids. > > I can see why, though. Despite the f
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In regards to M & G apartment posted on December 02, 2019 02:13PM does anyone know if the bathroom had a bidet? ( I could not resist asking.)
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"northerngate wrote: Thanks again for letting me speak. For some reason I feel like I’m butting in and I don’t want to go where I shouldn’t." Northgage, I'm glad you have joined us.
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JesusJesusJesus Wrote: Dec 2, 2019 ------------------------------------------------------- > Well, the balcony was rather dilapidated. Not in > great shape anymore. I wonder if it got much use. > I was really blown away by the fact that one door > led to a bedroom, another led to a bathroom, > another led to a different bedroom, and another > (which looked just like the o
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Reepicheep Wrote: December 02, 2019 04:37AM ------------------------------------------------------- > Every post brings more clarity into just how > poisonous TLWF and its leaders have been and still > are. I hope and pray that all the victims come out > into true freedom. So true Reepicheep, clarity. I have to say for that myself it has been hard to typ-o the things I ha
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Typer, thanks for the accurate insight on December 01, 2019 when you wrote" When Marilyn asked "told" us to give our spirit to her; that was man worship at it's worst. Those.. invited into her and G-man's chambers lost their ability to protect and care for the people; because that wasn't part of their Gary/Marilyn worship. Condoning or looking the other way while rap
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Reepicheep Wrote: November 27, 2019 11:52PM ------------------------------------------------------- > Quote > Posted by: puddington () > Date: November 27, 2019 08:25AM > > Reep, I’m thinking about John on his deathbed. I > imagine, in a moment of clarity, he looked around > the room and saw only his groupies. People he had > created by feeding them fairy tales. A
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On page 1030 I made an awesome typo = I meant to type BIBLICAL not bionic. tho I do think that 'bionic' is rather unique a typo even for me.
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If interested here is the link to Shiloh website. I had not seen this before- not sure why. The website is nicely put together. My question is this: it is revised and new without Gary and Marilyn Hargrave influence? I am sure I know most of the old timer's still at Shiloh what ever the address they will meet met at. I deeply care for family and good old friends. (We've all
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I found some links about the Shiloh auction where you can see pictures etc. QuoteFive star Auction Facebook 5 Star Auction November 20 at 2:21 PM · Shiloh Church Farm Auction, Sat. Nov 23rd, 2019. 9:00 am. EVERYTHING MUST GO! Lots of fine quality farm equipment and shop tools. Commercial grade items perfect for building contractors. Check out the complete list at [5starauction.com] Quo
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changedagain Wrote: =) Date: November 27, 2019 07:46AM ------------------------------------------------------- > I scheduled a special service for tonight, and I > expect everyone (including northerngate) to be > there. Cancel whatever worldly plans you might > have, and submit to His will. > -Changed > > p.s. it's possible I may not be able to attend > thi
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