Marrgaret, there are no shortcuts to the wholeness you seek after being mixed up in an oppressive cult such as the Christ Family. You have to remember, cults do rob followers of their hopes, their ambition, their time and possessions. The cults often leave an impact that will never really go away completely, but will fade over time.
I've researched many cults, not just the Christ Family
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