Re: Why do Ex Cult Members Turn From the Bible?
Date: January 25, 2016 09:11PM
What I found in the Bible were basic truths I could rely on. I could have faith in God, that He was listening to me and looking out for me. That even when a situation seemed impossible I could still walk forward in faith, in spite of my fear and rely on God, and He was there.
What I found in Jesus in the Bible was that I could die to all the bad things in me, and live in Him through my faith. That His Spirit would guide me, but only according to my will. That it was always my choice, my decision.
That all happened outside of any religious context, apart from just reading the Bible, and not trying to figure it out but just take what I could understand and not worry about what I didn't.
Also I very wary about churches and groups at that time. What I had found was practical, but what I kept seeing where institutions that watered down the truths I had found, making them more palatable, more acceptable. I didn't have a lot of positive experiences in churches during that time, though mostly they were just boring. Something people did between everything else in their life.
So when I met a group of people seeming to live the way I believed I was sure they were the real thing. I know God led me to them, of that I have no doubt. But I can look back now and see how my desire for them to be everything I wanted made me suspend my better judgement. I wasn't relying on God, but chasing something else instead.
After I got thoroughly chewed up and spit out (chasing my desire instead of just humbly accepting the reality of the situation) I didn't want to have anything to do with the Bible. I was pretty messed up mentally, having the one constant in my life thrown to the wind.
To me it was like 'you read the Bible and then go crazy'. In spite of the fact that deep down I knew better.
The reality I had before was the whole World was crazy and I had found the one sane thing in it, the Bible. Its truths were simple, and it required humility to understand them.
Seeing "The Book of Eli" at a theater really shook me up. Because I was like that. I had a Bible, and I knew it was true. I believed in God, not just that He existed but that He actually cared. And time and time again I faced things and put my faith in God and came out the other side amazed, even laughing at my own doubts when He had it under control the whole time.
So, that's why I turned from the Bible. Being stupid instead of having faith and being humble.