It's been mostly reading on the internet that helped me, especially the material on Rick Ross and the support from some posters on this forum.
It took a long time to figure out the depth of the deception, as my doc did not tell me he was involved with LEC nor that he was using their "technology" on me as his method of treating some physical complaints. Our "therapeutic" relationship became a dual business relationship the second yr and formal office visits stopped about 9 mos before he left. By chance, or perhaps by his design, a phone call intercepted by his girlfriend 1 mo after he was gone was when I learned of his involvement in LE, some of his lies, and when he knew I knew, his behavior turned into by-the-book psychopathic.
At that point, I went to a counselor at school who pegged him to be sociopathic. A search of the web found info on that and another therapist specializing in narcissistic\verbal abuse. She also said he was a sociopath, but many questions still were not being answered so I stopped going. When I did a search on Landmark, I found Rick Ross and here I found many, many answers.
So, for starters, info on narcissism was found at [www.drirene.com,
] a verbal abuse website with some good basic info on the home page.
] also had good info on narcissism and sociopaths, but the content has changed a bit since.
The Guru Papers, Kramer and Alstad
Spiritual Vampires, Marty Raphael
Prophetic Charisma, Oakes
Turn Off Your Mind, Gary Lachman
Outrageous Betrayal, Pressman
Buddhism Without Belief, Batchelor
Many excerpts on Amazon, and many excerpts of psych textbooks provided by Corboy, one in particular by Robert Lifton on alternative medical practitioners and boundaries
Organizations - [www.
] csj.org cult information service has articles and books that can be ordered. I went to my first monthly support group with them 2 mos ago and will continue that.
I'm awaiting approval by insurance to see a cult specialist who is an LSW (not covered due to a loophole in federal law). One visit with her was very validating regarding the deception and mind manipulation.
Speaking out about LGATs AND ethics and accountability in the alternative medical field has been very healing. Just getting the vocabulary to be able to do this has taken a long time, however. Truly believing that nothing is a waste, i.e., I did not waste 2 years with this person has helped. It cost me a lot, but it wasn't a waste.