Abigail1977- i totally felt the same way as you wen i left the cult. Sorta like i had to discover what the truth really was, no distortions. It was hard but by the skin of my teeth i hung onto my faith and now am much stronger in it.
I suppose a helpful thing i learned from bein in a cult is to test everythin an not jus believe what people say to you just because they come at you in the name of God or whatever.
John Fox- Thanks for the link
Thx John, ill bookmark that.
yes, firefly, I feel like Im just clutching onto Christs garment right now. The abuse I suffered in my cult was so damaging. If God is anything like this cult expressed than I dont think anyone would want anything to do with God, let alone worship, love and adore Him.
My faith is weak, but im well aware that God exists. Its just a matter of finding out his true character. This cult painted God as an egomanic, arrogant, fire and sulfar sending maniac. I SWEAR thats how they portrayed Him to me. They were wrong. Yes, God can be stern, but Hes also LOVE! He describes Himself as that in His word. Im at a new church that isnt so out there. There is a balanced teaching and good fellowship and NO ELITISM. My cult thought that they were the chosen ones. yadda yadda yadda...
They also said I would be chastized and devoured by the devil. They predicted dire things if I left their group. It was all control really---I soon am going to expose them so no other people fall into their evil clutches.
Theyd laugh if they saw this post----but there is something evil about spiritual elitism. They created divisions, were arrogant, and kept me there thru guilt, fear and intimidation.
Im having trouble forgiving them.... :(