Dont give up in despair. That is letting the wrong side win.
Here are some potential traps that so very many of us easly get caught in.
I was not ever in Fourth Way stuff but I was snagged in other dead ends and
will offer my limited perspective.
I was always advised that it was dangerous, but what they fail to communicate is that if you're involvement brings you to a stage where you're being warned of it's potential, it's already too late.
The person I got entangled with said, at one point, 'I wonder if you understand the risks
I was 25 years old.
Was I going to stop short, and say 'Glee, I am so glad you gave me this warning. I am in fact, a fraidy cat and am going to stop right here.'
Hell no. I stepped right up to the plate, said I was ready to face the risks. (Little did I imagine that the guy giving me the warning was himself the greatest danger)
Joyce Maynard, the woman who was a secret girlfriend of JD Salinger, wrote in her memoir, that after she'd become famous for her essay Growing Up Old in the Sixties, she began to receive appreciative letters from Mr Salinger. He made a point of warning her about exploitative older men.
Maynard, looking back, with the perspective of years, wrote that Salinger was the one he was warning her about.
You see, often seducers, whether emotional, or cultic, warn the mark or target about the dangers right at the point when the mark has already become so emotionally involved in the venture that its like walking away from a dare, or turning down a chance to participate in The Great Adventure.
And if you have any streak of machismo (and in the US, it is indoctrinated into us, whether we are male or female)...we are already preformatted to be triggered by anything that seems a dare.
And if we walk away, the G work people have an answer for that, too. They smirk and make it seem you were wimpy and inferior, and that even if you walk away, you've still been 'infected.'
And I agree. Stay far, far away from any therapist who has the slightest ties with anything Gurdieff related, including enneagram stuff. Its all a dead end.
You can get your actual self back--its like pulling alien crab grass from your infested
garden so that the indigenous foliage can slowly grow back and reclaim its turf.
For insight into the techniques, this is from a discussion about a quite different group
And, to examine all this from a different perspective, you can go here, scroll through
various items and stuff listed on the sidebar.