I have a blog that I maintain that deals with exposing gurus, and I find that I am often feeling guilty for doing this. I know that it mostly happens when people come on the board and start shamming me about what I have written. Sometimes I feel that I should take it all down and get on with my life, but at other times I feel that people out there are hurting and need the information. I say this because I was once a Jehovah's Witness, and after being kicked out I was devastated and had no one to talk with. Now there are boards that help these exJWs, and I am grateful for them and feel no guilt about posting. But with the guru situation I know that I have been brainwashed to believe that saying anything negative about a group is supposed to be bad karma. I don't think I worry about karma, but they are able to shame me into feeling guilty over what I write or post. I have had this guilt for maybe 15 years while being on forums that exposed these religions, and I never got over it but just continued.
I have been reading this thread: http://forum.culteducation.com/read.php?12,2579,page=2
and yet I don't quite understand some of it outside of the fact that posters can make us feel guilty. How is this guilt instilled? How do you get over it? Should you even get over it? Can what
Another part of me realizes that when I learned about a certain Hindu group I was very unhappy over learning these things, and I lost my faith in gurus, especially after going to yet another Hindu group to find more disappointment. I hate that I lost my faith and don't wish that on others. I rather wish I were still naive, but even then I was not happy with the people in those religions, with or without learning about the guru.
I have been called all kinds of names over the years, and the gurus I knew all told me to "walk away quietly" if I were leaving. And the disciples wished the same. I was never allowed to even voice my own doubts.
I feel that I am still brainwashed and wish I weren't.
Does anyone have any advice?