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chooselife
thanks so much everyone, i really appreciate it. i dont want to talk too much about my situation because i havent made the decision to leave yet, and im pretty sure if i know the sgi, there are probably members who read this forum and i just dont want the drama right now.
Tibbs, you said "I was a YWD leader in my district, but it was something that was kind of forced on me." same here. maybe the issues many of you have with your leaders is that once someone comes to you and asks you to be a leader, you really kind of dont have a choice. so they may be trying the best they can but really have no experience. i feel like i help members, but not enough. in a general sense, i was appointed to this position before i even really knew for sure that this faith was what i wanted in my life. i enjoy my new friends very much, but the field ive chosen to enter requires ALOT of time and i have to put it on hold to do activities and to help others. am i selfish for wanting to step down from my position and/or leave the organization until i figure out what i really want to do? i hate that im so paranoid and scared. this practice is supposed to make me happy. maybe its my fault for not doing enough.
sidenote: as a minority, this Ghandi, King, Ikeda stuff is really freaking bothering me for reasons im sure you all understand.
chooselife - No organization that truly cares about the happiness of ALL of its members would put you in this position. Trust me, the problem is NOT you not doing enough or being selfish. I think you've found yourself in a trap that many former SGI members have found themselves in - the SGI wants your time (and money) but you have no say in how the organization is run or what part you want to play in all of that. You have a right to a life outside of the SGI. You have a right to decide how much of your time you spend on SGI activites and what activites you want to be involved in. It is NOT selfish and no one should ever make you feel guilty about it.
And don't even get me started on how wrong the whole Ghandi, King, Ikeda stuff is - gah!