thats exactly what I wanted to ask??how did you deprogram yourself??
I wonder if it's similar to how I decided to leave Ben Yishai and later on th Baal Teshuva Movement, Carlebach and Chabad.
Hickman was pointed out to be a fraud when I found out that he ripped off a speech from the Lubavitcher Rebbe. The BT movement usually is a flop, the statistics are very bad. Carlebach was something I divorced myself from after I finished with my advanced degree in business and Chabad was the worst after my failed marriage.