Re: The Living Word Fellowship, The Walk, John Robert Stevens
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Apostle Dog
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Date: November 07, 2015 01:04PM
jan w. lane Wrote:
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> We all have a lot to ask forgiveness for. In the
> end, that is something we all must do. I believe
> we must walk with faith.
> All that we believe requires faith.
First of all, Welcome Jan W.--I believe that many of us do have to repent, probably lot of us already have, but not really for getting caught up into the spell of somebody with charisma, and then trying to adjust to insanity out of the leadership that JRS put in office. Maybe a little bit for believing too much, to not reading the bible enough and checking out what we are taught for now on. That is all the repentance most of the "sheep" need to do, I said MOST. Of course there was some scrambling for position by some of the members that were not ministries yet, but well, I want to tell you a story.
At that time in my life, as well as a few others, I got pretty messed up, partying too much. But over the years a face comes to my mind at times, and I know that I am connecting her to something, another memory that I have, it may be nothing to it, my wife calls them "bean dreams." But I recall, from the dream, and the vision of that face in my mind, the connection of the two, in a dream or a vision I think of being at Knoxville Tennessee at a regional meeting of several churches. (now keep in mind, that I alread have a girl's face, or a young lady's face in my mind, and the dream I connect it to is being at that meeting in Knoxville, and I was walking toward the beer keg, they had a huge keg of draft beer and somebody had some 'hash.' Now, as I was walking there, I see that girl with the sad eyes. And I think that I should minister to her, and I made a mental note that I would speak to her right after I got a quick buzz on. Well, after I hung out at the keg for a few minutes, I remembered her, and I walked over to where I had seen her, and she was gone.
Now, back to reality... After I got out of the Walk, there was a girl that I heard about, and I do not know if it is the girl with the sad eyes or not. I just know that a girl up there, and I somehow believe it might have been her, but when all the "shepherds" were changing wives, including the two pastors there, they got divorced, and one of them is the one that called me and gave me the "WORD"to divorce my wife and go service Marilyn, but anyway, at the time of all of that, a member there I heard committed suicide.
Now, that is the type of thing that happens when somebody not qualified has hands laid on them to be a shepherd. That is the type of thing that happened all over the Walk.
I did not ever try to lord it over anybody, I tried my best, but i believed, and i did not get into all the adultery there, not literally, that came in the next church, but I was not an elder there, but I tried, but I was not a pastor, not then, and not even now. I never was.
Those type of thing, Jan, that is what needs to be repented of. The incident in the dream may not have literally happened, I don't know, maybe I think about that, just put it all together, and living in a stupor like I have at times in my life, but it still is the type of responsibility that nobody needs that has not gone to school (*if you can find a good school) or at least self trained and truely been saved and filled with the Holy Spririt. I may have said this a paragraph or two up, but even though I wanted to be a good ministry, and I did try to keep it sane, I WANTED TO believe that to be a good ministry one must be 'RELIGIOUS," and that meant I was free to be liscentious, another word is lasividous, (forgive the spelling) in other words, there are two types of religiousity, that is a ditch on both sides of the road, one is the judgemental hate filled religious of the pharasees and the other is the wild, undisciplined, totally untamed flesly freakouts that were the fruit of the ministry of JRS.